So I want to make a science fiction novel and it's coming along in drips and drabs. One of the difficult things about trying to write a novel is that you don't necessarily know how to go about it. My dad just starts writing and sees what comes out which to me is sort of "meh?" because then I just end up writing kinky port (BDSM or ABDL - whichever your mileage may vary). Maybe I'm more love based and he's more I want to blow shit up so that's how he ends up writing about war and I end up writing about sex...is it an ID thing? Doesn't matter. I'm poor and living in the ghetto and my family doesn't give a shit about me so it's a wash. The point here is that just writing 'straight' (as it were) ends up where you just write whatever happens to be on your mind. Which I find to be OK and doable for "scenes" of a couple pages to a chapter, but I find it difficult to organize the plot as a whole.

I'm sharing some of my notes on what I'm working on currently, which will probably not matter as my notebook will get lost/stolen/burned and the story will be stolen or destroyed or I'll just die before it ends up getting written. I'm working on a space battle adventure story slash novel. So you're like OK, what are the scenes? Clearly there has to be character development, space battles, and then there has to be exposition on what the setting is like. Also politics. If you think of it like a television serial you can break it down into multiple interweaving plots where each couple of chapters has a theme. What I've done is have it so that each section is either a space battle, a description of what the characters are doing (often romantic, sometimes platonic drama), and then what the overall good guy/bad guy situation is with conflicting politics from the command and country level down to the individual characters.

For the space battles themselves I've organized them using diagrams of what the ships will do in three dimensional space. So in this case there's a fight over a portal ring that can warp ships across the universe after a space station blows up. It's a bit similar to football except with space ships. Momentum and acceleration play a large part, as the larger the ship the slower it can speed up or slow down. So this is one of my brainstorm sheets. I'm sure this will then be used to drug and torment me because I'm not "doing it right" by hiding what I'm writing. (I've had my notebooks stolen and read and had people drug me in San Francisco and then wander around in costume according to what I wrote - it's just that fucking terrible here. They're just horseshit. It's a depersonalization and torture method to prevent people from writing or creating anything - they'll steal the idea and then drug and torture you after parading around in costume according to what you wrote. I wish there were prisons here and the hospitals were staffed with people that weren't crooked.)

This is why no one reads or writes in the shelters. They all drug and torment each other. Right now I'm on drugs that make my back hurt becuase someone came into the library smelling like burning garbage (July 13). Who knows why. Crooked cops or because the shelter paid someone off to have someone drug me. The cops were given 20 large pizzas today - maybe it's a payoff. I don't know. At the point when you're being drugged and tortured by everyone around you because they're all sick and messed up you suspect everyone. When I get sick or hurt I stop doing drugs and start looking at all the things going into or out of my body. Apparently everyone else just does so many drugs they're contagious and sees if someone will pay them off to attack someone. And now I'm complaining. Space battles! I write when I can and I'm not having to deal with this shit. Don't come to San Francisco.