And...the food in the shelter at 1001 Polk Street was poisonous again. Plus it was a test to see if I was telling the truth which was incredibly annoying. The pancake breakfast was hard and gross, but the spaghetti and meatballs had something in it that make my head physically hurt. From the Meals on Wheels - one of the douchebags at the table said "oh this is gross" when I ate the pancakes versus the asshole behind the counter going "huh?" when I asked for food. It's like "see the cops are the ones are bad" or "you should like the poor even if you don't fucking want to talk to them" or "eat with us or we'll fucking poison you". Dicks. Is he telling the truth? Let's give him something gross versus something that might kill him and see if he's lying. You fuckers. And then everyone in the shelter or reading this are going to see if I just "want attention" or "want money" again. Here's the thing. Every single fucking thing that has happened to me in the last 3 years while being in San Francisco I remember because when everyone around me is acting like a tool the first thing I start doing is stop doing drugs and then write everything down and tell everyone. And now this is going to happen. It's not because I'm special. It's not because I'm god. It's because everyone else around me is the sort of dipshit that wouldn't do the same thing which is why this rat infested shithole doesn't even have any rats to clean it up. You dumb fuck pieces of cunt. Some among the poor have said crazy shit to me about organ harvesting (and hey if you *keep me up at night and make me high at night in the shelters I'm going to say some crazy shit, so you know, take pictures of all the empty buildings and then verify some of this shit - if I *always* say the food is poisonous then maybe check it now and again to make sure) - and some asshole has said something about organ harvesting when I went into the library.
So now I'm going to email the CDC, the FBI, and CIA. Good Job.
And so if you look up 1001 Polk Street they're changing the pictures to stupid shit having to do with three dimensional math shit. Ok cool - it's more of this heavn or hell shit or "testing" that's "is he going to pay attention to the math shit that we're so much better than him (but it's evil) or is he going to take pictures of all the stupid shit having to do with how he's being poisoned." Because it's illness monkeys that don't like COVID testing or being made to be tested for spreading plague because plague is one of the few ways you have of fighting corrupt cops. Which, understandable given how fucked up the cops are, excepting the whole we're going to create a shadow society of human weapons wrapped in virii. So here are two pictures - one of them is of a Nazi sign which I'm supposed to care about one way or the other maybe possibly and then be poisoned (really?), the other is a picture of a bunch of people who are holding up things that look like meals on wheels but are some other off brand of something. Take a look at the asian woman and the man on the left. Those guys are now *homeless in the shelter*. The asian woman looks like here face melted and whatever hand diseas that I have looks like it's on her face. And the guy has had his hair turn white and looks 10 years older. What the fuck is going on here? It's not like I can ask them, but they appear to have been abducted. What the fuck am I supposed to do about this?
And then there's this shit where they add a bunch of 3d shapes to pollute the pictures and see if I'll care - "how autistic is he?" - I fucking can't stand this place. He must only care about math and not about people. Bitch, what the fuck am I supposed to do about shit this fucking batshit crazy? If this is supposed to be a morality test to see if I'll rescue someone the question isn't whether I will or won't the question is "what the fuck were you thinking?".
Oh and for *privacy concerns* it's not possible to use image recognition to search for people's faces using Google's face recognition software. Which is fucking nuts by the way. You know how many abducted people you could find if you did (although the converse is that all of the stalkers could find people too). I don't know. At this point I'm of the opinion that fire was man's first mistake and it's been all downhill since then, which is what the Greek's thought a thousand years before the birth of Christ so there's that. I learned a bunch of crazy shit about how fucked up the city is last night along with the possibility that dipshit pizza restaurants that don't like their customers may be melting copper wire on top of the cheese for the pizza, but I'm too annoyed to write about that. Instead I'm going to work on my philosophy section and then on a day where I need to remember something obnoxious I'll tell everyone.
So I'm editing a bunch of pictures together for a picture on my website and all of a sudden everyone in the library laughs and some people come into the library and some leave. So either I'm psychic through the computer, or the computers in the San Francisco Main Library are bugged. So here's something interesting. If you're interested in whether or not people are psychic come to San Francisco and drink the water. Otherwise they're bugging the computers. So here's the thing. This woman comes in and starts talking in the library about how "AI is taking jobs this and AI is taking jobs that" when I start taking pictures from a website and start collaging them to make a picture. And then my head hurts in the frontal lobe. So either I'm psychic or this woman has discovered a super weapon that can make people sick via distance or there is something in the water that is killing people here. Like either I've discovered psychic telepathy or I'm dying from people that are sickening my food. So I start doing art on my website and they manage to make it so that I feel sick. Why is that and how does it work? Can you do that with people that are billionaires or world leaders?
Some crazy bitch just walked by and said "cash app" repeatedly behind me. So I said "fire fighters and bear spray" repeatedly as she passed. And then a librarian comes up and told me that the woman behind me wasn't saying anything. It was one of the dumb bitches from this presentation. Funny. So I'm not psychic in that regard, it's more along the lines of people making your head hurt. If it matters some mentally crazy person killed the "cash app" guy because it "sounds like" if you make an app you're an artist and therefore shouldn't be drugged by crazy people? Or something? And the fire fighters and bear spray thing is this homeless guy went and stalked a fire fighter until he sprayed the guy in the face with mace and then some homeless douchebags hunted him down and bludgeoned him into a coma. So if you make a website and you use art from other sources then people will organize the drugs around you so that your head hurt - so you can't come to San Francisco unless you want crips to drug and poison you so that you hurt when you use a computer. If you physically use a computer to make art you will be in physcial pain from black crazy people who will use drugs to make you hurt. The place is a plague ridden shit hole. See "cash app" no longer "works" because people who are sick and being around them makes you physically be in pain because of how often you've been drugged or had your food poisoned will hold seminars wherever you happen to be about how awful AI is. They're plague demons. (Some dickbag changed "head" to "heads" - again either people are psychic and can change code via just wishing it to be so while staring at their computer while high or someone is hacking my account and changing what I write by adding spelling mistakes I know I didn't make specifically. The less scary answer is that I'm being stalked by assholes. Oh - and they like to change "s" to something else so it sounds like I'm Chinese because they're pricks. Ah - the Cash App guy liked money and these are revivalist commie black people. It's so hard to keep track of people's particular brand of asshole here. You can't like art and money. Nope. Not possible. Not at all. I don't like plague though. So gross.)
So I had my lunch poisoned, and then came and wrote about how people in my shelter may have been abducted, and then revivalist sick black people with drug problems come into the library so my head hurts from the bad drugs they've smoked around me and a woman walks behind me reminding me of a chinese guy that was killed by dickheads because his app had a stupid name that schizos don't like the sound of. I don't remember having anything to do with that. And yes, I would like money for making a website unfucking all of San Francisco because I'm tired of being poisoned in a shit hole. All of San Francisco's fucked up bullshit is totally my problem and I can't find it horrifying that people in my shelter have been poisoned and then make art because everyone here is a codependent piece of shit that specifically want to depersonalize you through stalking and being a horrifying shitbag. Not without being sickened again.
Come to San Francisco so that you'll not be able to find a job and everyone around you is untrustworthy while they poison your food and you're in physical pain all of the time. But don't steal art from websites and make stickers unless you want to be in pain. The entire society is based around controlling each other through drug abuse and poisoning. It's like the poison world from a fuckign Samuel R. Delaney model. Imagine having a kid here and having to have the "you have to learn how to poison people because that's what society is like" talk. Fuck the birds and the bees this is the "real" talk. Barf.
Right - this is how this works. I've been poisoned multiple times to people's names that are "biblical" or "traditional" and then have someone call out someone's name that I've been poisoned to as they sit down next to me and have my head hurt. Because my douchebag "I don't give a shit about my family members even if they're dying in the ghetto" Astro Teller changed his name to something stupid. No I'm not changing my name from Peter Teller Weyand. Yes, if the entire fucking city of San Francisco is derelict and the people are sick and dying I'm going to be calling my cousin and every other rich money douche I can think of for help personally and because people are fucked up. This is again arguing with my abusers and it's fucking nuts. If you're in the shelters they're fans of taking a needle and injecting drugs into your toothpaste so it feels like you're dying. What a fucking hole. Oh and I'm writing about "truth" in my "maegrashoda" language file. Which is still true to the extent that I haven't been able to outline my philosophy or how parametric and non-parametric reasoning works because I keep getting poisoned by dickheads. Dickheads get to call me out for being irrational on days when the food is clean, I get to sleep and everyone around me isn't crazy or an asshole.
And the latest stupid shit I have to deal with is having the homeless put sick guys they've made me physically ill to and have them sit next to me because I haven't physically stated "I'm not a doctor". And then the sick codependent assholes will mimic whatever I'm doing. So unless you go around San Francisco and beg for money and associate with the poor you'll be poisoned repeatedly and have people go around saying "What's up?" because it's "like" Elmer Fud and Looney Tunes. It's a torture factory. They do this shit rather than have hospitals that work or jails. It's the same sort of crazy bullshit that leads to people not using the police to do their job but running society based on poison. I figure this is what it's supposed to be among the homeless if you "have to have a 'job'" - they torture you so that you "work" all the time by getting special privileges while being sickened so you're in pain all the time and then being around people that are mentally ill and seeing how you react. If you react badly then it's because you're crazy and it's your fault. If you act socially consistent with what society wants then you're "working". It's designed to get someone to hate society and act out intentionally rather than go "wait a minute - I'm in a torture factory surrounded by asshole". This is dipshit fuckup designed to force people into going to a psychiatrist or having them murdered by sick people that are upset that they're fucked up. From all segments of society apparently.
Some jackass behind me said something along the lines of "this must mean I should have patience" (see words have two meanings) while arguing with someone else. A joke that a family friend Paul Studier used to say is the one about a man and his donkey in the desert and the donkey says "water master water" and the man answers "patience jackass patience". And then you say the man and the donkey go on a little further and then the same thing happens. And you repeat the joke until someone gets tired of it and then you say "patience jackass patience". For the last three years I've done more or less nothing other than survive and scream in the street for things to change and written to everyone I possibly could. I called up KKR and asked them what the hell was going on. I went to the FBI in person so many times that I've lost count. I've been to the hospital over 100+ times for diseases that are fucking baffling. And then it's "because Paul Studier is a libertarian and I value my family and friends of family and my own personal friends (who have all decided to tell me to get fucked and abandoned me by the way) as opposed to *people that are so sick they are physically poisoning me or doing it intentionally* this must mean I have to defend by my very actions the notion of libertarianism". It's batshit fucking crazy and repeating it makes me sound nuts, but it's debugging stupid from all the people around here that are plague stricken. This is what this city does to you. I'm sorry, was reporting on this particular bullshit problem any less of an issue than the crack on the sidewalk, chasing a hasidic man around the ferry pier while high with dogs during a military convention a week before the attack on Israel (no fucking shit that happened - NOTE - this was spelled 'happenened' so people are finding and replacing words on the site to screw with me just to see if I'll catch it or if I'm high or not - like a "COVID" test. This is another way of fucking with people that the homeless fucking love for people that repeatedly tested themselves to see if the homeless sickened them or not. So it's a "test" to see if you're high or in your right mind to catch all the people that are going to fuck with you because you don't want to get high or do drugs around sick and dangerous shitheels which must mean that you're a bad person. The codependency and shitiness is out of this world.), or any of the other fucking bananas shit I've written about this place? I take it that if I get kicked out of the shelter again it'll be like two rather than three and it's back to being in a hospital because of a dumbfuck joke. This place is a disaster. And no I don't want to repeat all the same stupid bullshit mistakes and jokes that my family members made just because I don't like anyone here.
From what I can tell there's a large collection of murderous douchebags that are waiting until they can drug me into stupidity or have me killed. They're evil pieces of shit. I can't believe the society here is so fucking dysfunctional.
On that note I'm thoroughly disgusted and I don't want to work on my language today. I made an ironic sticker which was sort of productive. The language and the philosophy bit is more or less repeating shit that I already know. Oh. I should add this other section on architecture to the weird ideas section. This was yet another thing I was working on while everyone around me was shoving needles into their armm and dying because they're idiots.
And now I'm wondering if the hand sanitizer they have in the libraries in the main central library is designed to fuck up your hands. Everyone here is fucking psychotic. The crazy homeless that will sit in the library next to me will do crazy codependent type shit and then if I whisper or say anything under my breath they'll start mimicing what I do and talking to themselves. Standing in front of me and pulling their pants up is a ghetto way of indicating "yes dad" and is *incredibly creepy* - as in "I am doing whatever you say even if I have no ideological or rational basis for making informed decisions or functioning as a person that can distinguish what to do and what not to do". So it's a "thing" to go around wearing your ass out of your pants because it's a homeless indicator that you're not going to drug or threaten someone. It's fucking bizarre how fucked up these people are. They do the same shit with cars where they'll have you followed or wherever you happen to be they'll break the speed limit just to fuck with you after you've been drugged. Which things do you care about from codependent asshole that are threatening and fucking with you. It is everywhere and it's so fucking sad.