And this is where all the police reports will go. Holy fuck dude. And by that I mean, what the fuck is wrong with people here?

Oh god. I'm getting a contact high and having zaps in my head because someone went through my bag in the shelter and touched all the police reports with fentanyl hands and now I'm having someone with plague hands sit next to me in the library. Their evil fucks. DON'T COME TO SAN FRANCISCO. If you end up in poverty then the shelters will be filled with plague and they'll attempt to have you murdered.

More correlations with dumbfuck assholes. I worked at Briggo and I was bad at the job. It was to make an automated coffee robot and make a frontend for people with disabilities. I've been followed around by people with Lilo and Stitch costumes everywhere I go in the Tenderloin while being repeatedly poisoned and sent to the hospital and then having assholes do the "That Was Easy" button from Staples. And there's an "EZ" Print scanner in the library where I'm copying all the police reports about how I'm being repeatedly poisoned by assholes. Good I'm bad at being a programmer. Boo fucking hoo. There is a large amount of bitcoin being spent in San Francisco to spread plague and they abuse their children. DO NOT COME HERE.

So what is happening is that someone will take every failure from my life and then have someone demonstrate that they're better at doing what I used to do in some capacity - anything from personal relationships to making a flat bed scanner. And then they'll correlate that with some concordance of poisoning me. In the last 24 hours it's been the flat bed scanner and briggo, Mathew 6 and using the Rust programming language and poisoning me with rust on blankets, and a slap from a girl in the fifth grade, poisoning (again!), and law suits in England. This shit is *everywhere* and it's particularly bad in San Francisco. Everything that I did that was "good" ends up in things like a flat bed scanner, while things that were bad end up in forms of poisoning people. It's mental illness mixed with sociopathy where I'm supposed to "pick" those things that were good or bad in my life and like or hate those somehow. It's fucked up in the extreme and however this is happening needs to be unwound. Mine the fuck out of my life so long as you can get the fuck rid of the plague conditions and anyone that has benefitted from this shit goes to prison or the hospital. This is extremely bad.

It's done as a form of harassment wherein you essentially do "hostage taking" where the person being sickened and murdered gets to pick between informing on their friends and family and outing themselves (because identity theft given this amount of attention by crazy asshole has to be a real thing) and letting people kill each other with plague. I don't know how many other people are having this shit done to them.

There appears to be a life cycle of sick wherein they will abuse their children by having a sick family member breathe in their biota and then when the kid is so fucked up they can't walk anymore they'll give them piggy back rides through the ghetto to see if a gang member will have someone in the shelters poisoned to distract whatever crip evil shit the parents foisted on their kids and have it sent after the homeless people (since their social engineering viruses they're social in nature and you can use what amounts to identity theft to repeatedly sicken people). It's fucking horrific. Like piggy back rides are "my kid can't walk anymore" and hand holding is "everything my kid touches is poisonous" - with the implied "won't someone sicken my kid so they're not ill anymore and take the sick and give it to the homeless"? This shit is everywhere.

At some level it's going to be people with children just murdering the homeless and the poor by giving them sick so they're family doesn't get ill and die. And then...? The hospitals are crooked depending on which one you go to as well. We're talking people with four year olds who are sickening the poor or having them go through the ghetto seeing if they can get them to breath in smoke in just the right way to get their cognition back after being sickened into stupidity. That means that people are going to end up having their kids shot or killing each other by high school if not sooner. I have no idea what anyone is thinking.

A large number of these people appear to be antitechnologist or millenialist types as well - so there's a severe undercurrent of how do we poison people that use the internet. Taking programming language names and say, if you use javascript, poisoning you so you're in pain and then having everyone around you go out and buy coffee. Or stealing your computer so you can't program in rust (because the poor can't if they steal each other's shit - nevermind I bought my computer by working) and then giving you banklets filled with rust particles. There is essentially no police protection in the city and everyone just poisons each other.

Can you imagine trying to convince anyone to work in the city in a retail capacity that isn't involved in a gang or buying protection in some way? All of the bodega shop owners in the Tenderloin are muslim and essentially buy protection through a network of people that will drug each other or people that make them ill. As far as I can tell. Most ethnic neighborhoods appear to work this way in the city (namely the Chinese and the Italian neighborhoods). Meaning it's just gangs. If I tell someone to turn something down in the library I'll be followed around by the crazy man that whispers "quiet" to himself and gets upset and shakes his fist when I type and then someone will poison my blankets and pillows at night. If I don't do that I'll be followed around by crazy people in skeleton hoodies because I've "died" to interacting with people and am willing to be abused by poisoners. I've seen middle school students in skeleton outfits chase women down the street because they've been poisoned in some way so they're easily controlled and are scared of being repeatedly abused in a way that's killing them.

There's nothing but plague here. Do not come to San Francisco.

NOTE - This appears to be happening in a sequence of complaining. First there is the poisoning right? And then I complain about that. So that's 1. The second is the "freedom testing" where I'll be poisoned in such a way so that I physically hurt (perhaps by making sound painful by giving me a brain disease of some sort) and then they'll have gang members wipe poison on the papers I photocopy in the library. That would be 2. The 3rd is where they'll take someone that's mentally retarded, or a group of them and gas them with drugs and then gas me with those drugs and have me followed by "helpers". So it's a play on the words the "Third Reich". This shit is happening in the San Francisco Main Public Library. So I get gassed with drugs repeatedly at night, have someone wipe fentanyl on the police reports you see here so I get high when I copy them, have someone sit next to me with a fent straw in their ear passing out while some dipshits are around in skeleton outfits while he plays "scary voiceovers" of cops with screaming police officers and gunshots, and when I complain they send someone into the library that's mentally retarded (with the implied threat that I will be given brain damage by a drugging or gassed with drugs that have been given to the mentally retarded and then have everyone treat me like I'm a retard).

It's a depersonalization exercise done by gang members because then to "prove" that you're not retarded you end up acting "proper" and fascist through brainwashing in order to destroy your personality, or have gang members due the opposite so that you act childish. It's seesawing between two extremes while you're being poisoned through a coordinated RICO of asshole. Since someone's intuition when being surrounded with people that are this dogshit is to do the opposite of whatever they are doing or find out what they are like personally and then model their personality that is under threat on whatever that isn't it opens someone up to manipulation and abuse.

You have to be incredibly fucked in the head to be like "I bet we can fuck up this guy by having ourselves be so fucking grotesque that he'll do anything to model his own personality on what we aren't personally". Or you're supposed to make friends with your abusers and go out and buy a skeleton hoody and smoke crack on a street corner while people are dying with needles in their arm and all of the businesses are failing because of schizo druggy trees.

This has been happening over three years. These people are fucking psychotic and there is no rule of law here. As far as I can tell many or most of the police participate in this and I don't know how many people have been abducted/missing/killed through all of this or because of it.

If you're wondering about the animated gif of me wearing a paper hat and looking stupid - that was taken in Australia (Melbourne) where I was high as fuck and having a good time. And it makes me look like an idiot. I don't mind looking like an idiot so long as I'm not poisoned or sickened by asshole. I've always been able to make fun of myself - I still don't like plague. And I wasn't sick then or having headaches all the time. I was healthy and happy. I read Proust in the Amazon. Jerome K. Jerome's Three Men in a Boat is my favorite book (also all the other ones - and if anyone mentions The Perks of Being A Wallflower I will have you set on fire). I did high altitude solo hiking high overseas and nearly died several times. And never was it ever as dangerous or was I as sick as this plague ridden hell hole. Coming to San Francisco is the worst decision I ever made.

Also - and this is me having to debug stupid. I am not the "wandering jew". When you're surrounded by morons that are poisoning you and you end up with such stupid shit as having black gangsters that are wearing shirts that say "all I care about is money" with a skull and dollar signs all over it and they have foot disease and then someone says "sick flip flops" and then you're like "oh shit" and you're washing your flip flops out in a sink in a homeless shelter --- yeah. You end up having to apologize for other people's stupidity by declaiming all the things that you're not. I have been to many countries only once. I have been to several countries multiple times. Ditto for states. Ditto for friends. Ditto for cities. Was that why someone wanted to see if I was crazy and wanted to set buildings on fire in New York City and San Francisco? I mean if someone is going to prevent you from getting a job and then shoot guns at you in a homeless shelter in December after two weeks of not sleeping then you're forgiven for setting a toilet paper roll on fire in an empty girl's school.

As for how much money I've ever had? Does it matter? Like everyone else I spent a large portion on education, more than most on charity for the poor, and much of it I squandered - in a way that did not hurt anyone else. And I have spent years of my life looking for work that I never found. I worked in finance and was on the wrong side of every single economic downturn in my lifetime. I worked at the central bank from 2008-2010 - good luck getting a financial analyst position after that. I became a "coder" after that was already determined to be outsourced to everyone else - in 2017.

I care about money to the extent that I don't want to have to deal with people trading baseball cards for numerologically significant amounts of change or coughing and grunting at each other to determine what buildings to sell in San Francisco. They can't hold an auction! They can't run a bank that can buy and sell property and remain solvent! It has to be societal because it's not that hard conceptually and once you have a system in place it's turning the crank - you can print money here if everyone weren't making each other sick intentionally. And what do I do when I find people making me sick or using sickness as a way to create fraud through illicit funds and drugs? I tell everyone not to come here. Magnify me by everyone else that is being treated this way.

I should mention that the homeless schizophrenics and psychotics are reading this in real time and commenting outloud as a way of demonstrating the "anti-act of reading" wherein the written word is responded to at the moment rather than read later. They're logged into this account and responding to what I do in the library even when I don't upload the content.

Can you imagine moving here and looking for a low paying job knowing all the things that I know now? Why would you bother? These are supposedly "anti-facists" (I'm assuming? who knows?) but they have to be the most ignorant pieces of shit on the planet. Who would want to work at a retail store here or any other service economy job unless they were threatened or had no other option? Like having to pay for cancer medication or because otherwise your children would starve. If I were between the ages of "not a responsibility of my parents" and "not burdened with children or having to pay for medication" and had the resources to leave I would go anywhere else. What the fuck was I thinking?

I've been poisoned four times in the last twenty four hours (that I know of). And my reading and writing comprehension has been noticably affected to the extent that I'm rereading what I wrote for grammatical mistakes and things that don't make any sense. This place is the death of dreams - people come here to lose all sense of what makes them a unique human being while "the locals" attempt to have them drugged into incompetency. They're attempting to prove there is a god by proving that man is evil. They're not even worth hating because they would enjoy being recognized.

More evil controlling bullshit from plague monsters. It's like this everywhere - it's social conditioning and plague by the poor. The computers can be used for an hour and if you ask to extend your time then you'll be sickened by each of the staff members at the desk (there's two of them) and if you stay for three hours you'll be "in the clear". It's fucked up. I don't think they're capable of helping themselves. When people are this stupid and evil (I don't know any other word for it) then you don't know if they are doing what they are because they're responsible for their actions any more or if they just need to be rounded up and put in hospitals. I don't know what else to say. I don't want to be sickened to death by plague beings.

Here's another example of stupidity that they are involved in. They play word games like the following because "writing about how everyone is poisoning each other" to stop plague is a "word game" to people that want people to sicken each other until they start shooting. "Ra" and "at" (ie "@") are for people that can't "spell" "rat". So if you are a "rat" but you don't act in the proscribed manner of what they've determined that must mean then they sicken you so that you are either in the sickness tree of an email address (ie whoever you email will help) or the sickness tree of some group of black people that is "ra". It's brainwashing where you no longer know who your friends are - you can do this with just about anything. He's schizophrenic like a "cat" but he's not acting right according to our preconceptions - it's either "special K" (ie mentally retarded) or the "@" sign where he has to text everyone. I'm sure there are others that aren't binary but you get the idea. If you look around San Francisco and you look for all the misspelled graffiti you'll see this shit everyone. Someone will put up a graffiti tag about someone they're going to have poisoned to death and it will be spelled "No edea" and then it means "Noe I" - so the guy they hate is a know it all "narcisist" and the coloring will have to do with what kinds of clothing he wears or where he lives. Shit like that.

If you take the train from Oakland into San Francisco on the red line and look outside the window at all the graffiti on the freeways large amounts of it are from people that are homeless or are in gangs that are sickening someone or groups of people to death and are writing to each other on the best way to do it. Or are from people that are themselves ill.

In other news...

I've added some placeholders for things that I want to work on later. And I also added a couple of css icons and improved some stuff. At some point I may possble be able to monetize the site if it's not against the terms of neocities (probably) - I may as well attempt to do everything I can to dig myself out of poverty, but it's a plague ridden hell hole and even if I had a million dollars still I would be here. If you have money can you escape these things? Anyway, after I add the placeholders for other stuff I want to work on I'll call it quits for the day and go and work on my journalling offline and the story that I'm writing. Were it possible to live in a city where none of this shit was a problem or they were capable of dealing with it.

If the spinning icon of me looking like a doofus is me coming with a warning label, just be aware that I live in an entire state that's state motto is a warning label not to live here. "Warning do not come to California, we are cancerous asshats."

I have a testable idea for a reactionless spaceship engine that comes from pure phenomenology. It might work - and by testable I mean that it's possible I'm right and you can test it through observation (and if I'm wrong - from observation - then make a hokey science fiction story out of it). I have to say that I know what this means because the people that are poisoning me and drugging me repeatedly often don't and many of the people that might be my audience don't know that I know this. Because everyone here is dying and killing each other. You have no idea how galling it is to come up with an idea like that while everyone around me is not only dying of plague but is sickening each other to death because they want I don't even know. To be right while they die? This place is so fucking depressing.

oh and that other thing...

You ever notice that Epstein is only in the news when they want to cover up something else? Shit happened somewhere let's bring out a dead body and flog it a couple times.

and the last bit...

I added a pin up chick with a skull - bit of photo editing from this site which is quite good. To scare away the people that are nuts, same as the people chasing people around with the skulls on their shirts.