So the game playing that was involved today had me going to different Salvation Armys looking for food and then someone placed a bet on whether I would pick up a torn up 100 dollar bill on the ground and argue with someone at a bank that legally they had to accept it (which would later involve me being forced to have to put up with the "legal" thing later) or whether I would go to a salvation army and be handed a bag of food excepting that some of the food may not be good and the bag itself were made of plastic that might screw up my hands. Or possibly the food. I chose the latter because it involved more fat people and less stalking although I don't know that this means that I'm a communist excepting in so much as I want to live in a society where we don't bet on what the homeless or the poor will do. Because it's fucking awful. And now I'm going to see if I can do something useful before using this as a placeholder for all my in real time complaining.
Working with copilot here are the necessary steps in order to hypothesis test tetrachromatacy in people. It's a whole lot of buzz words that I don't understand, and so I'll keep digging. Technically speaking if it is possible with genetic engineering you may be able to give people enhanced color vision with a pill if all the steps work. Which is a big if - not to mention the expense. What does "Self-cleaving peptide (e.g., P2A) for co-expression with reporter or regulatory proteins." mean and how does this relate to what you do in a lab using a pipette and a test tube (ie "for real tho"). See here and here and here. It's interesting to note that all of a sudden copilot has stopped giving me errors such as "human testing is not something I can talk about because of ethical considerations and so on etc". Biology is probably one of the more useful aspects of AI given the finite number of possible chemical reactions (though large) and how computational combinatorics can solve many of these problems, so this is a promising update.
Science is a weird field. And by that I mean that when you look at the applied sciences there are only so many things that you can do if you have money. I'm being reductive, but in a sense you can expand computation through incremental incrementation and there will be breakthroughs in quantum computing and AI through difficult but feasible engineering over the next five to ten years. AI will be able to solve many problems in biology - specifically human biology. There will be a massive need for more power as the energy to use the systems we have developed in AI goes through the roof and so everyone all of a sudden is going to have nuclear reactors in their backyard one way or the other. There will be mass robot cars for transportation even on the highways which will drastically reduce shipping costs and convert much of middle america back to growing food as opposed to be intersections with gas stations or supply depots - ditto for much of the rest of the world. There will be a revolution in robotics as risc-5 becomes cheap enough that embedded systems become the new "I learned to program" and someone comes up with the next revolution in drone design that's land based.
In many respects that's all expanding on current paths of what we already know from the position we're in (in the optimistic we don't run into a global shortage/more wars path). But it doesn't say and can't say in some sense what we don't already know from expanding on what we have already. You're now aware that this book I haven't read, but is the kind of thing where you want to tell pretty girls at cocktail parties that you know everything about, was released five years before the Matrix movie came out. So I could start asking bing everything it knows about neuralink and whether it would be possible to recreate a fictional simulated reality (while asking on the internet) just like I'm sure several million other internet dweebs. They now sell hockey pucks that are as powerful as desktop computers used to be which you can connect to dual screen portable monitors for a fraction of the cost of a phone that's major claim to fame is that it folds in half. And in five years personal computers will be even cheaper. As it is you can connect several of these hockey pucks together on an rc car and see if you can't attach a sensor suite or do some automation. And it would still most likely be cheaper than a phone that's more expensive and less interesting than a book - although it does fold in half. So there's that.
I suppose what I'm saying is that it's hard to know what the next idea will be that's in any way useful. I don't currently have resources to work on building the cool car or any of that although I'm certain that someone will. In a way it's weird because just like in permuation city much of what is possible to do from an engineering perspective is already known and so getting to have enough resources to do it is something of a I'm not going to say privilege because I find those people annoying, but just a matter of who has enough resources to get the credit. Meanwhile I have chinese people and blacks taking bets on whether I want free food or free money without having the means to make a living by myself. So there's that.
Part of what makes San Francisco so "fun and interesting" is that there will be people that will stalk you and make you feel uncomfortable while you have no money and "you must be crying wolf" because you're being fucked with. There's currently a black guy that's pretending to have a fit behind me and if I go to the librarians they'll claim he's "just listening to music" as he starts waving around in his chair. They're more or less all like this. The guy next to me is nodding out either because he's been sickened enough or he's on drugs. But I "found food today", so I'm totally "not in trouble". While this guy is speaking in tongues behind me. More or less everyone here is contagious. I had to wipe down this keyboard with whatever is in the soap dispensor and touching it is gross. The people here are worse. I wish I hadn't come here. What a waste.
Also - nothing against Chinese people. Why were all the people waiting for food outside the 4th street Salvation Army Chinese? Is there something I don't know where only certain ethnic groups can go to certain lines? And if they don't it's a big deal? This is important to me because it's the difference between being stalked and poisoned or not. And no one will tell you because they keep secrets and well stalk and poison each other. That's why I like *money*. If you can pay for something then it doesn't matter where you eat. Hypothetically. Maybe not here. I was the only non-Chinese person there and there were like 200 people. It was surreal. Why? The meals on wheels in the shelters is unhealthy or sometimes doped with antipsychs and it's only chinese people getting vegetables from the Salvation Army? Something isn't right. I got two cans of off brand garbanzo beans and two off brand things of apple sauce (American Farms and Indian Summer respectively) that had me coughing up crap - which may be good for all I know. I didn't want any of the fruits and vegetables because I don't know that I wouldn't get some weird disease. Is that why no one goes that's not Chinese? Again - I just don't want to die of plague or malnutrition at this point. by the way they're doing this s*** now where the keyboard on the third floor of the library in the main Central library will be poisonous to use so I'll get like or sick on my handsoh by the way for some reason whenever I'm poisoned and just the right way someone will the the keyboard will auto correct and put put dollar sign 1-0 so it's like it's like a dollar but like 10 like 10 because 10 and 2 in binary is you know too and 10 anyway I just exited the library and they have these books that are on like you can buy them like in the store and on the end the end cap of one of the aisles it had something about like the perfect Latin American idiot and then queer Dharma or something and I come around the cornerand I come around the corner and there's some queer girl with a nose ring running into the library just as it's closing like she's won a million dollars so I was yet again poisoned to someone who did something f***** up to the only available keyboard in the library unless I go hunting around for one of the other libraries for which I will be poisoned there as well because I got free food so you could either starve to death and then not have not be poisoned with fentanyl or you could eat food but be poisoned with fentanylor you could beg for dollar bills from people who are scaffolding you and preventing you from working so it's mostly like it like I feel high and f***** up right now and by using the keyboard in a library for which someone got a payoff and it's just it's so exhausting being around this many stupid peoplethe other thing is is that the conversations I'm having with my parents are are like things that I talk to them about I'm seeing in in the in the wild in when I'm walking around and I don't believe it's coincidence so either they know something that I don't and they're part of this game to f*** with me or their llms and either way I just stop eating for eight days and nearly died and I haven't had money for 3 years while being poisoned repeatedly so again this is been 5 years of me saying I need a joband that I can't find work and then my parents calling me repeatedly like crazy repeatedly and so I sent them pictures of s*** that's wrong here and had no response I've emailed them I've talked to them on the phone I just don't know that my parents are even alive at this point because the responses don't seem to make sense except in the context of if you read between the lines and then look around it what's happening in San Francisco there's corlative pattern and I'm suspicious of any pattern when I don't feel well and I hurt and people are doing everything in their power to make me feel sick or hurt so I have little to no trust in anyone and I'll say that and then someone will walk around with a stupid t-shirt on I mean I left the country when I was 27 for 5 years because I spent several years just looking for work with no success like throughout my mid-20s so at this point it's like I'm being lied to and deceived either is a bet or to see if I will do something which can be held against me or if I can if if I don't do anything which means that I'm I'm either a fool or a coward and so I just don't trust anyone's judgment anymore and I believe that everyone is out to get me because I keep being poisoned in her assthe autocorrect made that funny but I'm keeping it because it is funny so I just I don't I just I have no belief that there's anything I can do on my own and so long as I don't starve and record everything that happens I wait for the world to make sense not until it does I don't believe in anyoneone of the things that I've described repeatedly is what I call boating and this is when you'll have a collection of homeless that are all doing drugs in a circle and forming encampments so one of the things that they do which it's a form of social controlis they'll get upset with anyone that's forming like anyone that manages to find a way of creating dopamine they'll become they'll become upset with and so the currency becomes dopamine as opposed to money right so if you do drugs you have to pay for the dopamine for the drugs that you were doing if you're doing something which is socially acceptable like exercising that's one thing if you masturbate or you sex then you'll find that the homeless if you are in a homeless area or incandment area we'll find where you are and do drugs around you repeatedly it's essentially a way to kill someone they'll do it with food as well so if you find a way to get free food and you don't do it in a socially acceptable manner which the rules for this are not defined they'll have large amounts of people do anything they can to have you poisoned and so this is the reason that you have all of the buildings in San Francisco abandoned because if you end up having socially unacceptable way of creating dopamine you'll be murdered essentially and the only people who can have dopamine are those people for whom their thing for which they do is socially acceptable among criminals because because money is bad therefore doing anything that would create dopamine for yourself that does not hurt others is therefore also bad because there are no rules and no One believes in morality anymore and so if I eat food and then masturbate in a toilet which are things which would not hurt other people and again just enough food to maintain my own body weight and doing something for which it doesn't hurt anyone else I'll have large numbers of homeless see if they can't do drugs around mecoordinate their sexual activity with mine to see if they can get money or drugs by sickening the people that might come around me and poisoning my bed by doing something to the bed which would cause it to become sick like coughing on it or wiping drugs on it again these are activities for which it's to regulate my own body and then again like I'll eat 3,000 calories a day yesterday I had no calories and then it evens out and see you end up defending a lifestyle for which it doesn't hurt other people around people who are designed and whose modus operandi is to hurt other people no matter whatand this is because they don't believe in money and so there is no currency of exchange which so there's no currency of exchange other than power or drugs or violence and because of this you can't build a building with drugs and violence you can't operate a store or a business with drugs or violence you can't create science with drugs and violence I mean you can if you go to war and then you fund an industrial complex that's designed around that but then how do you pay the workers right so like the entire system of society is based on like this person has found dopamine release in a way that's not acceptable if I were running around the block then I would have to pay pay for shoes and then those shoes would be somehow not okay if I was doing tai chi in the shelters I'll have a bunch of people sicken me and then I'll have a bunch of people wearing masks on the street who are doing Tai chi because there's like they're mentally ill and they're trying to come off drugs and they can't and they see me as like oh this guy is found a dopamine release mechanism and so I'll copy him in sick and him and then wear a mask and see if other people wear it like want to sick and me in return so that we all share dopamine over this stupid thing so it's essentially like it's a form of violence based on like a dopamine disorder in essence and because of this like they're they're sick and contagious and violent and they there's no like you have to have the CDC come in here and start cleaning house because there's no other way of fixing this like is someone eats food but they eat it in the wrong manner they'll be sick and if someone exercises but they do it in the wrong manner they'll be sickened if someone masturbates in the toilet but they do it in the wrong manner they'll be sickened so it's anyway that releases dopamine it's that would be that would be done in such a way that it that someone else could kill themso you just organize you just organized violence around whatever way they have to feel good until the person wants to kill themselves or they s*** their immune system I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak and for which it's like I'm in a position where I can't do anything I could get a job as a sweet street sweeper and I would be no better off and I would be stuck here for years regardless and I still couldn't pay rent so it wouldn't matter and I have no interest in doing drugs and there's nothing I can do to materially improve society and I don't want to be around people that are making me sick so I just don't give a s*** about anything anymoreI mean I'll read books and occasionally I'll find something but other than that it's like I spend about half my day or more trying to find food and then the rest of the day trying not to be sick and by someone who's crazy I should mention that I'm saying this show up in my p*** so I'm just going to say it I don't care how stupid it is so if the techno pope from incall is like my cousin Astro then the other billionaires are like cartoon characters right and then I've also seen it correlation between advertisements for drugs on television and people who make websites having 3D advertisements for the drugs that are to fix the things that are wrong with them but the 3DS advertisements are childish I'm I'm seeing this thing in my p*** that's showing upwhere you're going to have 3D p*** but it's going to be like AI driven and much of that is correlated to high energy physicists as a critique it's sort of like revenge of the pornstars I don't know how much of the like and then so each one of the cartoon characters based on comic books through AI driven pornography or AI driven artwork is like ranking people based on their intelligence based on how high definition the artwork is of them regardless of the medium this is incredibly stupid I'm just seeing this correlation show up on my phone and in my social media feedsI don't know what it means if anything other than it's stupid seeing as anyone could make an iai-driven pornography of whatever they wanted including billionaires so I don't know it may be another one of these things where you correlates how intelligent someone is and how much sick they're allowed to have where sick is like beneficial biological biota that will help them based on some sort of arbitrary morality test and then you base that morality test or you show everyone that morality test correlativelythrough artwork again I don't know if this means anything or if it's useful in any way other than to poke fun at people who have money or are in power it's just something I noticed and it's going to bother me until I say something it's completely on actionable as far as I understand itso one of the things that happened today is that I was looking around for food from the salvation army's and someone threw a $100 bill on the ground but it was cut up and I didn't I didn't pick it up because I didn't want to argue with the banker and I knew it was a game and so I went to a salvation army in the mission district and they gave me a bunch of food but the plastic bag would make my hands f***** up and I already have whatever hand disease I have anyway as I'm eating this food on the streetas a meeting this food on the street and I throw the plastic bag on the ground and I start eating the food on Valencia not only do I have everyone like screwing with me to see like what I'll do if I like beg food from a restaurant is supposed to go to a salvation army and as I'm coming back from the salvation army eating the food a 500 lb black woman comes running out of a out of a gym and then someone else follows her out looks me in the eyes and licks his lips now I suppose this is sort of funny but it's it's like people screwing with each other on a like a deeply f***** up psychological levellike I've seen people with like their lips are like 50% of their face and they're missing eyes and and s*** like this and it's like it's it's I don't know man it's f***** up anyway they did this s*** again we're like I ate a packet of oatmeal raw I drink a cup of water I come back to my bed and some idiot his cough sick on it and no one says anything and so I have to change the sheet that I lie on because they're like enforcing social order based on who eats oatmeal in a f****** shelter which they can get from a salvation armyso rather than use money they use sickness and hurting people because there is no money and there is no social order and all the police are crooked and all the and all the jobs are gone and no one will tell you what to do in order to feed yourself in a way that won't cause you to be poisoned you just have to guess to the point where like people who do have money will follow you around with guest t-shirts laughing at you because that's the way it operates is that you have to guess it what's going to cause you not to be poisonedand then all I do is write this down and have every intelligence agency that I've ever of every country I've ever been to look at this and go well that's f***** up if you go to 5th and Howard there's a plague zone and it's like my hands are f***** up and I'm sick all the time I don't want to sweep the streets for like 20 bucks an hour and then those guys have been here for the 3 years I have sweeping a street in front of an empty building and then harassing the homeless those are the two jobs that are here is like harassing people who are sick and homeless and then cleaning up the s*** after themand then like people like will drive their cars through the city looking at it that's the only thing that's here I'm assuming you also have to be a gang member to get a job because anyone that's not would just get a job and then run away as soon as they could cash a check so they go to the cash check cashing place cash a check and then run away but I've applied for all of these jobs and then nothing has happened so I'm assuming that like it's just like you have to be friends with someone in a gang and then and then you all do like you all do drugs and for cookers well everyone else is sick and then around abandoned buildingsdid I'm honest enough for it's like what why do you want want this job like what are your qualifications it's like I've never swept a street before I would be terrible at it and I want two weeks worth of pay so I can leave like like I've signed up for urban alchemy for a job and it's been like on the ass end of nowhere where that would ever happen and then like half those guys are in gangs and they decide if you they decide if you qualify for getting a job with them if they have something on youit's like oh this guy we know him from prison and if he does something we do we don't like like tries to run away well like tell everybody about that one time in prison and then he'll get the s*** kicked out of him or like he has an aunt that needs money and if he doesn't get the money she dies or something like there's no and that's like the same with more or less the rest of the city s*** too I've applied for city jobs and it's always been like yeah we'll never it'll never happen I've asked the guys remaking the gazebos over the subway station if I could carry dirt for $10 for a day so I had enough food to eat and they said they had to ask their boss and then ignored meso there are no jobs it's just like find out how you're going to be sickened by idiots so in a sense in a sense like the salvation army on Valencia if you eat there you'll be sick and by sick black people more or less if you eat at the salvation army somewhere else you'll be sick and by some other group of idiots but it's not like you can eat it at a salvation army and be like oh I ate it food from somewhere where they help the poor no you have to determine which salvation army has which collection of idiots that are going to sick in you and sort of the same way where the cops are screwing with people and putting sick on the books depending on which police officer that day likes yousome more or less everyone in the city is corrupt and is attempting to have a fiefdom based on what kind of sick they have and whether or not like like if you piss off the library cops the San Francisco library will have the idiot that has buttons all over his hat have one mask off and then cough on everything and so now there's all this free food at a salvation army on Valencia then none of the homeless will eat because they don't want to be sickened by assholes it's just so f****** obnoxious of course this is all speculation because if you're going to sick in someone you're not going to tell them who you're sickening them because of and so you have to guess and then you blame people for which they're not necessarily responsible and then if you blame those people they hate you for it which is the entire problem of sickening people in the first place because you don't know who the f*** did it and why so it's just the most obnoxious piece of s*** dumb f*** I've ever heard of or seen or witnessed or any of that s*** so this is stupid and obnoxious and something I just realized the two next frontiers in computing are biological computing using neural cells and quantum computing using entangled bits right and the two types of phones that you could be given on the street one is sticky and screws up your hands and makes you stick sick and one is one gives off too much radiation and will make you sick and so the cell phones are critiques of the new type of computation that's coming along as a joke of how to f*** over the poorisn't that obnoxious it's incredibly s***** isn't it it's the cell phone from the future except the cell phone from the future is going to make you sick and this is cell phones that are it's the 14 billion worth of cell phone they just dropped on California and you can get any of the cell phone from the poor for the poor and you can and you can measure the ones that are sticky and you can measure the ones that give off too much radiation and those are the two types of new of new computers that are going to come out in the next 10 yearsit's just s******* on poor people based on we found a new type of computer why just to be an a****** I mean I got to understand the point shouldn't finding a new type of computer be a good thing why should on poor people it just doesn't make any sense to me plus you have all these risk five chips which are going to be cheap chips which still work and you still can use them to make robots they'll just be cheaper and anyone can access the hardware layer so you still have an army of engineers that knows how to do embedded systemslike I understand it now like I get the joke but it's not funny and it doesn't make sense it's just like s***** it's like okay so so what like why why be an a****** just because 5:00 in the morning and I was just punched by some black 20 year old because I picked up the wrong phone from a charger in the dark so I have to call the police and have them tell them that their people here are f****** idiots I don't have my glasses on so one of the schizophrenic staff members will walk by and then adjust their glasses self-importantly that's another thing with schizophrenics is that they believe that if you are wearing glasses this makes you intelligent believe it or not so what they'll do isor they'll just f*** with somebody to the same extent so they can comic books and movies that the characters that are intelligent wear glasses and so I can't see without them but if I don't have them and I'm nearsighted because I'm poor I'll have everyone around me walk by me tilting their glasses up and down it's it's a form of social control moron because I picked up the wrong charger for my phone in the dark because he's a jackass after I went up to make oatmeal in water these people are dumband I don't know what what sort of virus I have because of what was on his hands after this black man screams at me in the dark and hits me in the face for which he just pushed me and if I hit him back I'll be kicked out of the shelter and there is no where else to go because all the shelters are run by the same group of idiots mostly gang members but the sort of people who will find out that you're not wearing glasses see you and then self adjust the self-importantly adjust their glasses either subconsciously because they're afraid of the poor or like part of it is mental illness so they don't know they're doing it any other half of it is they're doing it because they believe in magic and so those two groups of people are intertwined and you can only find out which is which by talking to them and building a relationship of which why would you want to in either direction right this is done also by the poor who are like their schizoaffective and so if you steal something that means that you're not as good as I am and therefore aren't wholly and therefore you're not a priest and therefore I can hit you right and if you steal something then you're the same sort of person that I am and therefore violence is the only thing that matters and we're back to morality doesn't exist and we're back to you know so it's just y'all man can I get my glasses what about my drawers yeah so it's dumb f*** gangster b******* it's essentially like I was hitting the face of course this causes me to yell I get kicked downstairs and then some ass monkey steals my glasses and one of the staff members that happens to have glasses waves them up and down on my in his like doing like taking the bridge of his glasses and plays with it as he walks past after I got hit in the face elephant matters it's a white douchebag and I'm supposed to go oh this is a revelation I was also given white pudding and black pudding at the at the salvation army and again this is gangster b******* having to do with like if you eat the wrong food or you do the wrong thing then you'll be attackedwithin San Francisco the white guy is approximately 5 ft 6 he's elderly he's approximately 60 years old has glasses smooth back hair and wears earbuds everywhere because he's sick most likely the black man is approximately 20 years old is 6 ft 5 6 ft 4 it has the dread thing coming out the back of his head in a tube thing so it's hit somebody's commotion steal the person's glasses and then have some douchebag who's part of the shelter who is who is like one of the staff members be abusive and an a******over over f****** nothing because I don't want to eat food that I know is poisonous and so I'll have s*** stolen because I don't know nonsensical reasons it also makes it so that it's harder to report on things because I can't see as well so if you're poor and you don't want to do any of this s*** and you just want a job and this is what happens the police officer repeatedly said that it was not my it could have been a citizens arrest and therefore it was a reasonable amount of force to punch me in the face while he's playing with the gold chain around his neck and then asked me why I was being racist by mentioning that the guy was black oh but the staff member who played with his classes after I had my glasses stolen was a white douchebag in his 60s so we're learning all sorts of things about racial equality they're just f****** assholes every single f****** one of them one of the black gangsters is doing the false equivalent s*** where he'll like talking to his phone and then I can't talk into mine except I'll be assaulted and then they corrupt all the staff members this after being poisoned repeatedly for I don't know how long till I stop eating the food and then they poison the sheets in the blankets essentially the only way to find out what's going on is to record every input and output into your body at all to find out how you're being poisoned because no one will tell youand then they start assaulting you and stealing your s*** another note when I was at the FBI there was a schizophrenic lady who was waiting in line who it was homeless who was talking about how the food was poisoned and she would say this s*** were like I just ignored her but I paid attention to what she's saying because many of the people who are schizophrenic are talking to themselves or saying something that will come up later in a way that won't matter because it sometimes it's pretend sometimes it's not so she mentions that some of the food that she was getting was poisonous which may or may not be truethe other thing she mentioned is that it didn't matter if it was Friday or if it was baked it was still a potato so first of all the glasses that I was wearing made me look like Mr potato Head because they were black plastic frame glasses but the other thing is is if you look at the two possible computation models and hardware then you have quantum computing and you have neurobiological circuits and so first of all this looks like the peace sign which I keep coming back to cuz it's annoying and it's part of the culture here because you have a transistor model that's going to two different it's bifurcating into two different paths that are similar but at the same time are history repeating themselves and you also have this idea that they don't want to repeat the mistakes of the past where they had an upper class that was based on computation in a lower class that wasn't and so the idea here is to kill all the researchers or anyone who would be interested in computers at all and the way you do that is Poison the food and grunted each other and cross your legs and have secret societies and do all that stupid s***t so people see that the transistor model is getting reinvented and so they brought back all the stupid b******* from the '70s about how to f*** with people because they can know that it worked in in some sense in one way back in the seventies and they have like a playbook on how it worked and what didn't and they see that people are doing the same thing with hardware again and so it's oh if you're going to do the sociological thing that happened before technologically we can do the sociological thing if it happened before culturally hence you have it doesn't matter if your potato it's either fried or baked but potato is a play on words for couch potato so if you're a couch potato and your basis of doing work is to sit on a couch and type words into a television which to them isn't work then we'll either poison your food or or you're going to get high or there's going to be some sort of sort of thing for which there will be a trade-off that involves you being sick somehow and anyone that doesn't know what's going on doesn't get a choice because the food supply is poisonousso you can either be a part of a secret society for which you get to know what food is in it isn't poisonous be on the take with money that you you got for something like a payoff of hurting someone or just eat everything and then hope it works out but any any of these options are bad and see you you put people in categories based on the choices they have to make on how they're not going to be killed or sickened into into being crippled for life or impoverished for life and then if you're so thoroughly traumatized by this that you like try and play the culture of levers that are in place to like get something out of it then you'll be like the guy who was incredibly fashionable for 5 minutes until bell bottoms went out of style and then they just look like an idiot they weren't wrong they just were screwed over in some way because they were rewarded for being not themselves anyway it doesn't matter I would have to make over $60,000 a year to afford a place to live or be on the take and I don't have glasses now so it's stealing your computer and stealing your glasses so I can't make money that way so it's just like there's no way to make any money in any way that matters and I'm just going to just I just wait there's nothing else I can do I don't have the resources to leave it's just a s******* that entraps people I suspect that most of my family members if not all of them are deadI can talk to someone on the phone but I can't see video or pictures and by the by the time I can the AI will be so good that it's most likely fake I mean it's not now cuz I can see the state of the RDI now but like I know that that whoever's claiming to be my family members probably or not I know my sister's alive but she's crazy but I don't think that my either my mother or my father are alive someone's hijacked their phone though and are pretending to be them then I have my doubts about Astro as wellso if someone claims to be your parents but they won't do video calls and you're in trouble then it's probably not your parents anymore either that or your family members are assholes and evil and then some level it's like well same thing though isn't it I had my mother tell me that she wouldn't give me the phone numbers to relatives because that would be enabling me or she wouldn't do that because it would be wrong and so I believe that she's whatever whatever I'm talking to isnt my mother it should be noted that this s*** wear like I'll be attacked by a black man and then have like a white guy who's an elderly guy in a shelter organized to steal my glasses and then have the cops repeatedly ask why I'm being racist this is like a shadow prison this is like it this is game playing where you're supposed to then then apologize for seeing that race is being a factor and how you're being treated and it's done not because the gangs want you to be in a race-baiting gang it's more done so that you're giving sick and then someone else that they don't like that's racist then you then sees you as an example and then that encourages them to organize into race-spaced gangs and so you're supposed to ignore the fact that like for example no one goes to a particular place to get food except Chinese people and all the Chinese people are sick and so what they'll do is if someone hurts someone that they particularly like it in the media so like if if someone is accused of and this comes up on my cell phone cuz the cell phone is bugged and they're attempting to do this thing where like whatever happens in the world is your fault in some way somehow so if someone shoots someone and he's a white guy and it kills a black guy and he sentenced for so many years then for each one of those years there's some sort of concordance on how you were going to be mistreated according to racebecause for some reason that you had an effect on the world and they believe in magic so this is this is sort of like a this is a race this is like a shadow government sort of again it sounds nuts but I'm around people who are crazy so like I'm assaulted my classes are stolen and then a cop asks me who happens to be black while he's grabbing the gold chain around his neck why I'm being racist and then the person who had my glasses stolen and organized it and then is playing with their glasses is a white guy and so it's this likewe're going to use raises the way that we're going to hurt someone and then show them that race that it's not race that's hurting him it's it's a collection of people t so it's it's essentially acting likeo dislike him and then ask him and repeatedly about race I mean you have to think about the absurdity of a white of a of a black cop and a white cop coming up to you and asking you why you were hitting the face because the guy who who hit you wanted to perform a citizens arrest over a cell phone so it's it's essentially acting like it's being assaulted and having my things stolen and then having a performative play acted in front of police officers about race and so it's a form of torture and it's just what it is there's nothing that you can say about it that would shadow that they would like disguise this in any way from what what that is again I took these glasses from a Chinese shop where when I went to the FBI someone came in that that day when I picked up the classes someone went into the FBI worried about Iran and then people on the street made fun of me for the glasses that I was wearingand it's something could be wrong isn't it and then I posted about this because it was harassment so this may this may again be like one of these things where I don't know if the glasses were adulterated in such a way that it would make me sick but even the mere mentioning of this fact may have caused it so that I would later months later be assaulted and have them stolen by people that think they were doing me a good favor so it's it's like this but you don't know the extent to which people are are psychopathic you just have no idea but like I was assaulted and I'm talking about race on my phone and it's going through the the speaker system of the Gmail editor or the Jeep the geditor for the phone the voice recognition essentially which is s*** by the way and then things come up on my on my phone about some guy at space force that shot and killed a black man was sentenced to 50 years in prison or something and you don't know the extent to which so first of all there's the privacy implications you don't know the extent to which this is normal becauseyour phone is just using AI to give you social media preferences which you could which you could do just from what you type as well right so the voice activation activation is somewhat secondary but more than that you don't know if like your phone is connected to other people's phones in your vicinity or that this is being used to screw with you by someone who has Mal intent because I already know that the phone is making me sick but I have to have it anyway because I don't trust the people around mebecause among other things they assault me and steal things from me so there's like there's no way out of poverty essentially once you're stuck in poverty in San Francisco and your family members are insane there's no way out the hospitals and the cops are I believe maybe retarded like there may be something wrong with them and the cop and the hospitals are crooked I don't believe that there's any authority figure here at all that knows what's going on or has any ability to affect anything other than gang members and once you have the means that you make a living such as a computer ora place to stay where you won't be poisoned repeatedly or sickened with the food then there's no you can't get a job there's no there's no way out of poverty again you have to make more than $60,000 a year in order to afford a place to rent unless you know someone that's that's essentially that's a gangster because they've managed to corrupt the government or they're part of the bureaucracy so there's nothing you can do you essentially just would sit here and you wait to die from Poison and it's you know you could have a cell phone that poisons you the books in the library could have have poisonous s*** wiped on ityou could eat food from the cafeteria in the shelters in the shelter staff members will physically poison the food or you can take your chances touching things that the Chinese touch when they go and they get food and Mass from one of the food pantries where they touch everything that's what I'm doing right now so long as it's not you know then touched before but since I went to the salvation army and got food but a bunch of black people got sick or like because that's owned by black people or something then I was assaultedyou can't mention that like you can't mention that like the salvation army appears to be run by black people if it's on Valencia and the salvation army appears to only give food to Chinese people if it's on Forest Street because then it's a race-bading game about you know we're going to teach you about race or races the thing for like why are you being racist they were performing a citizens arrest says the black cop grabbing the gold chain around his neck while the white cop like chews gum as hard as he canso it's just a it's just a play to show you that you essentially have no power to affect anything you can be assaulted and have things stolen at any time and there's no such thing as like law or or like like if they have to kill you they have to go out of their way to hide the body and then make the records of you disappear so it's a matter of like are you worth the trouble or not the other thing is is that once you don't once you realize that it's a game within a game and they and they want to see if they can get you interested in race or interested in that it's not about race or something then you know you're being manipulated by some other group of people so you know that there's you know that you don't know the people for whom you are being attacked for or by and therefore if you attack the wrong group of people you're just being someone else for its own sake and then people want to make have you make friends with a group or collection of people who are all gasolating you and for which you don't trust any of them because you have no reason to and the entire thing is to set up in the first place once you're being gasoline and you know you're being lied to then you know that like your friends are they're trying to make whoever they are whoever the collection of people who is gaslighting you is they're trying to affect who your Friends are so that you can be manipulated later and once you have that you have you have social isolation to the extent that like you you have no way about it being getting out of the situation you're in because you don't know anyone that you can trust and then once you make that clear from your social interactions with other people they pick on up on that immediately and then they themselves don't trust you because they don't want themselves to be hurt by people who are out to get youand that's just what it is and you can tell from the way that people speak to you and how they interact with you where they'll say oh I see I got you man and then it's supposed to be this thing for which they'll like poison you somehow or like they'll go out of their way to belittle you so there's essentially nothing I can do I just wait to die. in the black ghetyo speak waht they do is they have "girls" or "bitch ass niggas" - so if someone is a "woman" theyll drug and stalk them with people that are sick and mentally retarded and violent until theyre killed or used in some eay (coerced for sex money drugs etc). this again is the sociology of taking the most violent and sick members of a group and having them police those people that go to the cops while everyone carries on with business as usual. other social groups may have other ways of dealing with theis - the merry pranksters may just drive people crazy or play pink floyd as a playbook to hurt people etc - la vida loca is popular among the hispanics and so on. so youll have people differentiating between "women" and "females" based on whether or not their stalking someone or if theyre having a relationship with someone that has ovaries. its not a gay thing so much as a sociological means of violence and cowrcion due to a lack of mental health care or what amounts to ingroup mental healthcare. Feminists have similar ideology with sockening people that appears to be more overt. sometimes older female gang members will talk about hltheir "kids" which is similar in many ways - protection mixed with sickening and coercion. more or less no different than a protection racket. so a "bitch ass nigga" qualifies as a "woman" because they call the cops however of the person that assaults you manages to get you into a fist fight now youre on the street with a "brother" and the two of you need to find shelter and he may now stalk you as youre both outside the shelter together. See also the tower trump card in the tarot. Mamy of the people that are sick in this way have to be reassured repeatedly that theyre a "man" as theyve had people compare them to a dog repeatedly or had them followed by dogs either as a howling mad thing or a muslim thing. this is similar to the seesaw or reaction abreaction pavlovian effect of having someone treated in one way thats right so they pull left so hard that you can then swing left and use their own momentum against them (metaphorically speaking). And now ill be reading orientalism by david said. it is to laugh. should i eat today from a bread line or just stop eating again? does it matter? oh and "crying again" is most likely a reference to the wailing wall and judaism - because if you dont want to be poisoned or sickened then you cant eat anything that doesnt involve paying for it (at all) or youre not jewish enough to have or use money and if you ise an ebt card then youre not jewish enough to have or ise money and you mist be muslim or a bitch. unless you steal something or deal drugs or prostitue yourself (gender noteithstanding) or eat food with antipsychs in it or be misled by counselors that are crooked. but if you stop eating thats like the wailing wall and judaism. both my parents are dead and theyre filtering the output through an llm. so im dead or ill be dead soon so nothing matters. oh they like to do this stupid s*** so if there's someone who's a dog it means they they're like a they prey versus a baby that doesn't anyway they do this with cars it's like a joke where there's four tires or four legs of a dog so if someone if someone prays they have four limbs and so like if I walk around I'm like the leg of probably this Muslim idiot on a carpet but if I don't eat then they'll have race cars go past the shelter and so it's a joke to see if I can if they can like sicken this idiot who's it who's praying to Muhammad see if like four different people who are sickso like two of them are arms and then like two of them are legs cuz they can they can like walk around and s** so it's it's essentially like dragging someone so they're sick all the time and then having two people who are like running around to who like walk around like everyone is sick in the city and then two people who do things manual labor right and then the fourth guy gets to be like the guy who prays or something so it's sickening someone to like four other people based on an ideology and I don't know how bad this is in the rest of San Francisco but it appears to be happening to me with this idiot but if I don't but if I don't eat then it's like the wailing Wall and then it's like and then it's like Judaism and that doesn't fit in with the Muslim s***.