August 23, 2025

So this is the next iteration of complete horseshit that I have to deal with.

So these flip flops are poisonous. They're "funny" because they'll make one of your feet have circular blisters and one of them have striped blisters based on the kind of sick plastic that is used in them. It's "funny" because they're American flag flip flops and America must be evil. Here are all the delightful pictures of what they shoes do to your feet. After I took them off an walked on bloody feet to the library everyone wearing shoes with their socks pulled up to their knees looked depressed. These idiots are people that get off on wearing stupid shoes after fucking up someone's feet. Then a sick chinese guy in a "USC" (US - see?) hat walked past me. Each one of these "colleges" is a joke on fucking someone over to a "T" party where it's either "good" (oh look he's on drugs!) or it's evil (oh look he's castigating himself and others). Yale is for yelling at people and then people will fuck up your throat. Harvard is for laughing but then you get a brain disease if you do it wrong ala Who Framed Fucking Roger Rabit. Berkeley references dracula and "barking mad" and so on. It's all so fucking annoying.

I DON'T LIKE GETTING HIGH AROUND POISONOUS SHITHEADS. GET HIGH OR WE'LL POISON YOU. OH COOL - LET ME REPEATEDLY WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING YOU DO UNTIL YOU STOP POISONING ME YOU POISONOUS SHITHEADS.

So here are those pictures. There's probably some fucking shirt having to do with how you fuck up someone's hands like from "Handseley" college. The we don't need no education is poisoning someone unless they leave people alone and the darkside of the moon is encouraging someone to act crazy so they make friends. It's asshole in both directions.

And some jackass put on social media something about Britney spears doing an unhinged topless dance which I'm sure is completely unrelated (read - flip flops). Look everyone poisoning someone is hilarious. Who gives a shit what Britney Spears does? You can't sell fucking shoes at a Target without a secret handshake.

Meanwhile on the AI spooked "it totally didn't come from that one movie" "news" site (now I sound like fucking Trump - ugh) coming in at current position 98 with 98 comments is this gem - https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=44991039. Which means that you only get to buy things from people that don't have to face the import duty - like big box stores that sell you poisonous flipflops. Working on the paywall. The phones and the library are both within a separate internet within San Francisco so all of the phones given to the poor are firewalled and the internet can't be trusted. This is most likely a Chinese thing or coming from sick Chinese that have managed to fuck with the phone system - or crazy people. That means that the phone system within San Francisco and the technology infrastructure is compromised. This is also "funny" because it mentions feet. So it's a multilayered joke on the fact that you can't buy shoes from the store without being poisoned. Here are pictures of *nothing but Chinese* getting food from a food line. Why? I'll find free wifi to get this stupid article momentarily. It's another dumbfuck game by poisonous dumbfuck that can't buy or sell shoes without poisoning each other. Fucking morons. IT'S A WE CAN'T WEAR SHOES OR SELL THEM REVOLUTION EVERYONE WE'RE SO FUCKING SPECIAL. so this is more dumb f*** b******* I go out of the library and some a****** and a wheelchair plays a snippet of barracuda but his feet are all f***** up and so it's like you're a singer but you're only singing about something minor which is most likely another joke about f****** Alice in wonderland it's the most stupid b******* on the planet what you have is you have all these crippled people that are pissed that they're f***** up and then anyone that comes here that's capable of doing anything they're going to make them sick repeatedlyespecially if they complain about being homeless in a shelter where people smoke meth or crack around them so therefore they must be a bad person for which it's okay to sicken but see I'm against free speech so if you follow me around for a couple years walking behind me or following me with drugs and then having people say stupid s*** in my ear just to f*** with me then if I'm against free speech and I complain I'll be poisoned to a joke that's funny because it's like a song so you have oh and I have to I have to hackhack a f****** paywall that means that I can then tell everyone about I found this Bloomberg article which says in essence it describes how deep s*** McGee the a****** in charge has decided to make it so that only big box retail stores get to have postal service now but if I can't hack it then I'm not cool enough and you keep drugging and f****** with me until I can show how cool I am as a hacker because of some f****** stupid movie which is still my favorite f****** movie so you have just this it's just someone put all this s*** either in an obsidian file or or collection of note like post-it notes all hooked togetheror they put it in an AI prompt just to f*** with me and so it's just a matter of torture it's just torturing someone in public and this is what they do here and every one of these pieces of s*** is a complete a****** cuz they all know how this works nothing no one will say anything I mean I just passed I just passed a pair of cons wearing the stupid glasses from from the cover of the book society of the spectacle right like they're going around wearing like 1960s wingnut glasses after they find out where you areit's like you're making a spectacle of yourself by being gaslit and f***** with by hundreds of people and then you complain about it how you're being poisoned yeah no f****** s*** I am you get to walk around barefoot and have free food oh one f****** wonderful f****** awful that's awesome that's f****** that's amazing except my throat hurts continuously my head hurts all the time my feet and my hands are f***** up the only thing I've accomplished in 3 years is telling everyone to pull their head out of their assthis is the biggest s*** hole on the planet and it's and it's designed in such a way where it's like we're not going to send you to prison we're going to make a fake prison to f*** with you and then if you go to jail will hold that against you for whatever made you go to jail because then it's your fault so I get to decide if it's my fault or everyone who's f****** with me is fault because I'm not going to have a f****** tea party and hang out with people and be friends with people who are treating me like s*** there are people right now that are getting to work on quantum computers and biological computers and I'm stuck yelling into a cell phone that's giving me irradiated s*** how to u***** San Francisco because they can't do drugs right or so f****** flip-flops and now I get to walk barefoot through the hate district on bleeding feet which I'm sure will make everyone think it's f****** hilarious to get canned food because I can't trust that the people who are poor are clean enough that I can eat the food that they touchbecause sure is s*** no one else is eating out of the bread lines that the Chinese go to unless that's some f****** coincidence I'm done followed around by aristo's this sounds f****** stupid in any call there is these like aristocratic like Angel looking people and then all the people that do all the worker hunchbacked and so of course my feet are f***** up so I can't wear the sandals so I have to go around everywhere looking at the ground and that I have people who are like incredibly fit sexy people walk by laughing we're probably brain dead but it's just done to f*** with me because they know where my phone is and so they can track where I am and then just screw with me that wayit's like what does she do for a living well probably 90% of what she does with her time is work out and look hot so like I don't know maybe she's a gym instructor for all I know but they just I just know it's a f****** game that's why all the black people go around telling each other you old man I'm not playing because they get f***** with all the time and I don't even know how many of them are in like a b******* circle so she's screwing with a white guy the way you would f*** with a black guy just to do it to see what he would doand what I would do is b**** the entire time and u***** everything because no one has anything on me other than I complain and I'm obnoxious oh and I lit a toilet paper roll on fire one time did I tell you the part about when I was at 555 embarcadero there was an ambulance every other day and they were lighting fentanyl under the toilet papers so that when they fed me food that had melted rubber in it and I was s******* my guts out I was wiping my ass with fentanyl that would be absorbed in my hemorrhoidsthat's the level of b******* f***** up head up your ass d****** that lives here my ideal end of this is that I leave they have people come in and make businesses using all the people that managed to escape her f*** someone over and in 5 years all those people die because they're f***** over by the people they f***** over in return and then I get to watch with binoculars from the other side of the country because at this point it's either you're going to kill me or I get a white collar job being productive anywhere other than f****** here because I just it's like I'm just going to wait to dieif I eat food that proves that I'm not suicidal and so therefore I don't count as a Jew enough right and so therefore I can be left in poverty and that's okay but if I starve myself but I'm not good enough to go to the hospital and have my stomach pumped then it proves I'm not suicidal enough to be saved and therefore like the entire thing is a f*** like I just they want to have me murdered and then everyone's going to go around going well what about me I have all these problems it's like yeahthey just save up the disease so that anyone that comes here and b****** about not wanting to be gassed with meth they'll just turn the meth off and then give them all the diseases and then if they go out of their way and do anything that's like oh well wait a minute he likes doing drugs and drinking and all this s*** they'll get all this schizophrenics all riled up and say she's a liar he drinks occasionally he smokes pot once in a while get him sick of him and it's it's designed to build someone up and do a mythological characterand then once you have this guy so that he looks like the f****** Messiah because he keeps complaining about how everyone around him is treating him like s*** then anytime he does something normal like he'll go and have a beer then he'll go he'll be following around by schizophrenics who are attempting to prove that he's not God because everyone here is just all they want to do is kill people for money it's either money power drugs or sex they don't believe in anything else and the ones that doare crazy and so they use those people to hurt others and there are no jobs and since I'm threatened with death I'm poisoned all the time and I hurt continuously the only thing I can think of is well what did life mean after all of this right what did it what did it all mean what was the purpose what was the point because that's all I can think about when there are no jobs there is no future and everyone around me wants to have me killed it's like well I better wrap this s*** up because I certainly aren't there's no there's no future from this f****** piece of s***I mean you know it's like I can count how many times a day I'm poisoned and it's like well just write it all down and meanwhile I'll just think about philosophy I mean I saved up that s*** for like my retirement party like a year before I was going to die because I figured hey maybe I'll think about this crazy s*** after I've done all the things I have to do on this planet helping other people and accomplishing things and now I spent 4 years f****** around and looking at my belly button because everyone around me is a d****** that continuously drugs me and makes me feel sickbut if I don't starve myself enough I'm not a Jew enough so I don't count for you know getting me the f*** out of here no they'll follow me around with women with shirts that say fashion week on it you know what I want to open up a sadomasochistic p*** studio and then abduct people and f*** them and then afterwards I'll just wander around with a shirt that says consent it's a b**** isn't it cuz that would be f****** hilarious more things to note so this may be a joke about this may be a joke about a feminist f***** up joke about keeping them barefoot and pregnant and then you poison the shoes but you give them enough to eat so that's one thing this could be another thing is is they have this statue of this 50 foot tall woman who's naked in the middle of the city because they're f****** insane and it's like you can have a 50 foot tall statue of a naked woman in the middle of the city provided the city isn't filled with abandoned buildingso the so right so the other thing is is that this may be like one of these things were like if you give up all the things for which you have then you can have the thing for which you've given up in a future date possibly maybe because it proves how cool you are except if you complain and only for those people that we've determined in advance that this will occur for so for example giving me a sweater filled with sick so that I wash it out in the water is black is a funny joke having to come from five keys when I was given clothing that would physically make me sick from wearing itso again this is like oh he found the sandals will make him sick well the doc Martin store is closed and they're going to put something in there now so maybe he'll get something from this in the future in some weird f***** up socialist dystopia because he doesn't like money because we've made it impossible to get a job or do anything cuz we keep f****** poisoning him and surrounding him with jackasses but he still keeps his phone so the T-Mobile store is still around but if he uses the phone that must mean he's not cool but oh by the way the two phones that we've given to the poor one of them will make you sick if you touch it cuz it's sticky and one of them has f****** radiation coming out of it and those are the two types of computing that's going to happen in the future because they're making new transistors and repeating the past because obviously and so now it's yet again one of these things where it's like oh he's not cool enough to be a researcher or he's not cool enough to you know qualify for something in some capacity that we've determined ahead of time so rather than let him work on the edges of what everyone else is working on and make a living because we don't like computers or the future because we're myopic pieces of s*** we're going to poison the guy repeatedlyrather than say hey the future could be a good place to live in if you didn't f****** poison people and then stated what your goals and wants and desires were but no let's kill the f****** researchers let's kill anyone who would have any stake in the future at all oh but he doesn't want to f*** us he doesn't want to do drugs with us he's not cool enough he's from another state he came here to make a living they're all murderous pieces of s*** every f****** one of them I can't wait for every douchebag that thinks that they found a hilarious joke to laugh at my expense after I've been tortured it's like oh we crippled the guy so we can't walk anymore or he walks in pain or there's like things wrong with his feet that aren't ever going to get fixed or we f***** up his hand so we can't type anymore or it hurts or we f***** up his head so every time he talks his throat in his head hurts all of the time because the the f****** shelters are poisonous and we poison people it's so f****** funny they're just they're just such f******they're like human hemorrhoids they're like if you took a hemorrhoid and you attached arms and legs that's every f****** person in the city it's just f****** disgusting a religious Wing that on the street just told me to have a blessed day and so now I don't know what the f*** that means a happy day is Wozniak a good day means that someone is going to drug you so that they do all the left hand s*** and you don't have to worry about it a great day is the opposite a nice day is where everything is normal a blessed day I'm assuming comes from either the f****** the Koreans and the and the and the whatever the f*** you call it the Moonies the f****** Moonies or it comes from blessed are the peacekeepers or peacemakersoh but blessed means that you're you're preaching and if you're preaching that people you know shouldn't poison you for cause or without cause or for any reason then you must be a preacher if you want a job and you don't want to be sickened and you don't have to make friends with people who are sickening you and you don't know who's doing it and you can't buy $5 f****** flip-flops at Target without it being in such a way that your feet will get f****** poisoned in a way that's funny you must be a preacher that's what that isso I don't know what the f*** a blessed day is I'll report back if I'm poisoned just to see if I can record what a blessed day is so the next dumb f*** a****** who's stupid enough to come to San Francisco to attempt to make a living we'll have some sort of signpost where it's like they said a blessed day run for the f****** hills you're going to be you're going to be poisoned in this way I do know that if you if they say have a good day and then you and you do any left hand path s*** at all then you'll be poisoned immediately because whoever is having a great day where your good day is involved has been f***** overand if they tell you to have a great day by God you better have a great day to their cause because if you don't you're totally f*****all of this stupid s*** because I don't know I don't want to speak Chinese or Spanish or Hindi maybe if I just learn enough Hindi where I can tell people to go f*** themselves that'll qualify me for not having to deal with any of this stupid ass f****** piece of s***next time someone tells me to have a blessed day I'm just going to go Como no English no English señor oh I just found another one if you turn on the English translation for speaking into your phone and then you start speaking Spanish you can use that as a correlation to f*** with somebody como estas or maybe not I just want to know how I'm not going to be murdered and apparently that's too f****** hard there isn't anything but me bitching while starving and then getting sicker repeatedly until I'm dead or putting me in a position where I can make a living there isn't like I'm not I'm walking barefoot because they swept the street so that that's funny that you can do thatand then that's funny until someone that I don't even know how much that cost that's someone with a billion dollars might have thought that was funny so now that'll happen until I look up and then I step on a needle or something and I cripple myself they're just so f****** obnoxious and I don't know who's doing either I can tell the stupid amount of money is being spent on this I can tell that there's all sorts of like like if I run away at the last minute then then they'll come in with all the money and go he's gone everybody's all right yeshooray the ass so we didn't like his gun that we kept poisoning but you do this to all the dumb f*** poor until they they do drugs out of desperation or they or they do the wrong thing so they can't report on how big of an a****** you are because now all of a sudden you like you have something on them so it's like a test to see how peaceful you are if you're peaceful for a long time that means you're so cool it's the stupidest s*** I've ever seen meanwhile you have kids who've gone through all of Middle Schoollike is it supposed like Middle school's three years suppose you started Middle School when I got here and then you left middle school after 3 years is up you spent the entire time looking at a city that's darylicked where there's f****** nothing and everyone is sick and and like you can't and you like the entire time you were in middle school if you bought flip flops you'd have been poisoned and no I don't f****** like middle school kids don't surround me with middle school kids and have me f****** followedthey're just they're just such f****** like they're either crazy a****** or victim that's it you can't not be one of those you get to choose which is the least objectionable and some deep s*** managed to like at your cross in the glass of my f****** phone after stealing my own glasses they're just they're just there's just I don't know how to describe it they wouldn't understand religion it if the pope told them if the pope came to San Francisco with the dolly llama and set them down all each individually wanted a time and explained what religion was they wouldn't understand they're incapable they're just s***** people I don't know how you explain to someone that this is like a group of people that are this absolutely s***that there's s*** people and not to do that I must be a Protestant I just I don't and now I'm going to be followed around by f****** Protestants and made fun of him f***** with they're all evil evil is a combination of stupid and dangerous and that's what they are not in a cool fun way like we're going to like revolutionary war like fight the man like no they're just they can't sell f****** flip flops to people because they're morons they sell $5 flip flops that poison people and then they have to tell everyone not to wear those and if anyone comes here that wears them they'll be poisonedwhich means that anyone who comes here who buys anything it's like the same s*** with the drugs at Walgreens which are poisonous or the same s*** with poisoning the peanut butter and anyone that comes here to buy anything at all you have to be in a secret society or you'll be poisoned so they're maliciously they're maliciously evil it's a combination of stupid and dangerous because they're so dumb and stupid that they hurt themselves by their bad actions they don't even get anything out of it they hurt one people person and then they hurt everybody else in society because of how stupid they are so typically what they'll do and this is like more stupid s*** is you can get canned food and then they'll offer you two of which one of them is dented but do you take one of them because it's the right thing or do you take two of them and then you're reminded how half your head hurts and so they like to do this thing where they'll show you two of something but one of the two things is f***** up because half your head hurts because you were poisoned some more or less everyone here is sick they don't have any health care so if like they can poison you but they can't fix the way they they poisoned you they don't give a s*** most of them are sick and it just hurt each other I mean again like the Motorhead song we want you to leave and we don't care about your feelings it's like yeah cool and all your buildings are abandoned your whole s*** so I just at some level like I don't I don't know I'm surrounded by people who are incompetent and I can't do anything to fix my situation because they're all incompetentI don't have the resources to leave they can't sell shoes they can't feed the poor I think I narrowly avoided being given a salad that would have given me salmonella by someone who was crazy but now I you know there's no healthcare here like even if I had like just a normal illness I don't think they can cure those but my head is f***** up in an incredibly weird way and then like if I complain about it I'll have women walk past me grunting and folding their arms but but they they don't have health care they don't know how to fix thisthey're all just sick and it's incredibly sad I just I don't I just look at people and I see sick people everywhere it's depressing so I can tell I'm still being mentally f***** with someone has a car on a Fiat with the license plate mxx sea and I'm looking at my feet which are f***** up and I'm looking at them and I'm sitting on the ground picking at him and I cross a white basket with a feather on it and I take a piss hang on that's interesting and then I go into a store and ask for can opener and the guy says no no it's for sale never mind and I go okay in it the sign about the door is faith hope and love the greatest of these is lovethe guy has one earbud in his ear and as I leave the store a guy walking a dog has a SF hat on so it's it's one of these things where it's my head hurts I'm being f***** with and oh by the way they gave me two giant things of cherry filling which is of course 1200 calories of sugar but if I eat the other canned food it makes up 2000 calories so it's oh let's do exactly what he says even if we can make it wrong somehow and so it's mind control b******* based on sick and I can tell I'm sick and I hurt becausebecause I do stupid things and I can see the correlation between that and gross awful homeless b******* like homeless I don't know what you would call it if we f*** with someone and then do drugs and stare at the right objects in the right combination we can give someone brain disease so it's like oh wonderful so have my head hurts oh and then one of the Cherry cans was dented well let's see I could I could list all the things I've ever done sexually if that's a cherry thing I've never heard anyonedoes hurt as an h u r t anyway so this d******'s listening in on what I'm writing on my phone and he has a sign up of the doors like our can openers are for sale and I'm supposed to be against I'm supposed to be against money now because I'm being f***** with to the homeless and all of their crazy b******* with let's brainwash and f*** with him based on sick and so I'm supposed to say this guy is a terrible person or I suppose that yesterday I could have picked up a torns $100 bill that had 60% of itsthe paper of it left and then gone into a bank and argued with a teller that even though the identification strip is gone that it still counted as $100 bill and then begged the teller to let me have $100 bill just to have it because it comes from the street in some mythological f***** up sense and then I'd have $100 bill and I could buy food that wasn't stupid and maybe or maybe not the drugging in the sick that I get from the homeless wouldn't cause me to go and do stupid s*** like ask peopleask people for can openers specifically that has stupid signs above their door and then all of a sudden I'm arguing over artwork again as I go around to see if I can supplement my two cans of cherries and then I get to go door to door and see if someone is a good person or not about whether or not they'll open up f****** cans of food for the homeless when the guys who gave it to me attempted to give me lettuce which I believe had salmonella on it in it just to do it and they were all wearing masks and acted confused when I asked simple questionsbut surely surely if I had picked up that $100 bill off of the street and exchanged it for $100 so that I could buy things like clothing and food while all of the Chinese in Chinatown watched and paraded around me with Snoopy t-shirts this wouldn't have bitten me in the ass at all for any reason no no I'm I'm sure it would have been just peachy I'm sure that it would have worked out I'm sure that all the guys going around with checkered flag shirts and Snoopy shirts after I left the area had nothing at all to do with itso this is more b******* about oh he's doing stupid s*** because he's sick because the homeless made him sick and there's no health care and I don't know what the f*** is wrong with my head and no one's going to tell me some a****** made me sick and then later I'm going to find a guy with half his head caved in and we're going to be in the same area at the same time and then I'm going to leave the area and someone's going to gas me with pot and my head will feel slightly less ick maybe if I'm lucky if I do all the right things in some karmic back ass f***** up world I'll be unfucked according to how cool I ammeanwhile my feet are like I don't even know what the f*** is wrong with them now I'm walking on concrete because I can't wear the stupid shoes or the stupid flip-flops which are poisonous because no one here can still f****** $5 flip-flops at Target and because this is stupid and everyone is schizophrenic one of the of the two other cans of food that I have one is mission pride which is funny cuz I jerk off with one hand and the other one is cut green beans because I cut my right hand in the kitchen with a cutting knife on accident so it's like in a sense I'm eating the four parts of my body because it's funny I don't know how funny this is because I'm unwilling to eat the food that doesn't come in a can because I don't trust you to poison me or not poison merather so if I don't want to be poisoned I have to be willing to be made fun of for the fact that everyone here is incapable of not poisoning me I don't get it but it's funny because I'm going to walk with a limp now because one of might because if you wear the flip flops the year that are the American flag flip flops it'll f****** your right foot more than your left and so that's the dented Cherry can the other Cherry can wasn't dented and so if I and so if I just walk around on concrete long enough with my shoes offor the poisonous flip-flops maybe I'll kill the bacteria or whatever is on the sandals that is making my feet f***** up but I picked Adam long enough so that there are gaping rents in one of my feet and then the shelters in hate district will give me funny food based on this on how they know that my feet are f***** up more or less everyone here is a f****** s*** back there isn't anyone here that is like not incredibly f***** up I don't think I don't think it's possible there's there's literally nothing I can doI just find out afterwards how I've been f***** over and then warn everyone away from here who doesn't want to be f***** over by crazy assholes that's all I do all day that's all I do everyday you either have money or are a tourist or you have crazy assholes try to kill you or you're a crazy a****** that's it there's nothing else that's the sum total of what's here there isn't a universe and would that exists in which someone is going to like blackmail me to do something based on giving me a disease I'm just going to complain like I've been doing for 3 years that's it that's all I do I'm not going to be like you've given me a disease I should totally be your friend we should totally hang out I should do everything you want me to do no I'm just going to b**** the entire time it pisses everyone off and they're like well maybe if we give him this disease a little bit he'll change his mind now I won'tI absolutely will not I'll say oh here's another disease you giving me a disease again and I'll just do that until I'm dead and then I'll tell all the people that you don't like that there's disease here and not to come here unless you have a disease or a gun or a weapon or something they don't like guns okay come here with your own novel interesting brand of disease don't give it to me and then you can hurt everyone that that hurts me and know all of their weaknesses wonderful this will then turn into a joke about the gig economy even though you know for example I tried to use Uber and then in Seattle when I was sleeping in my car I was getting shot at and then I had Uber customer support call me Mr Peter repeatedly which I believe was based on a joke from schizophrenics when I use the phone here to sign up for any food delivery service at all they all said no by saying come back when hell freezes over and maybe we'll qualify your phone and then I never heard backand if I use the Uber app again I got all of $2 in change and then all of the all of the food delivery arrows we're pointing backwards and every time I use the app I'd have guys in wheelchairs going backwards so not only are people here too stupid to sell flip-flops they don't want the pour in the homeless delivering food to them because that would give them money so that they could participate in the economy why would you want to give the poor money if you gave the poor and homeless money they may shop at the same stores you do you wouldn't want that it's easier just to have your tech friends blacklist all the phones the poor use so they can't do any of the food delivery apps because f*** them that's whyso not only could I get a not get not get a f****** job I couldn't even deliver food because the phones they gave to the poor we're only used to call their relatives so they could escape the escape the the f****** state that was the only reason they spent 14 billion dollars on phones so that people could leave they didn't even want them delivering food to them because they're that f****** selfish I mean you have people whose only thing they do all day is wander around the streets you give them phones and you don't want them giving you food because you don't want to catch their diseases which they may have because of course there's no hospital care and all the phones they gave away either irradiate way too much radiation or if you touch them are sticky in a way that'll make you sick everyone here like inside no matter what color race Creed how much money they have they're all just f****** c**** there wouldn't be someone like if someone was on fire not only would I not piss on them I I would wonder if the fumes would make me sick from a fire that was on someone else that wasn't as evil inside because they're just that s***** they're like there's nothing in there I'm saying is I'm saying this as people are opening cans of food for me because of course you feed me something that's funny while I'm sick and my feet are f***** up while denying me any ability to participate in the economy or have my own place we're not surround me with b*******but you get free food you get a place to stay you have clothes aren't you happyit's like rules lawyering from the worst sort of a****** you've ever seen like somebody who was in decided hey maybe if I threw all of modern chemistry and AI we could f*** someone up real good that's that's the entirety of San Francisco and if I complain someone will do something in some sort of ironic weird f***** up way to teach me a lesson about how I'm wrong they'll give me something that someone else has because they'll see if they can't make me jealous of something stupid and then say oh but this is what it costs for that guy to get it because we poisoned him as a trade off and then poison me again they'll do it like they will find any particular justification at all just anyone any kind of justification they can findto make it so that your life is miserable in a weird trade-off situation so that someone is good to you someone is bad to you but you're always worse off no matter what you do and I say that and then around the corner I'm going to run into some a****** wearing a t-shirt that says Vegas on it or something because it's like gambling you don't believe in religion you believe in gambling because you know maybe maybe you don't believe in our face so you only believe in Vegas and so therefore everything you do will be like gambling except you'll always losep**** she isn't isn't our religion right see it's like religion now look at that and that's just one of the stupid f***** up things that's going to do that the collection of idiots does and then yours and then it's like well if you just make friends it's like yeah with who I have Rich assholes I have poor assholes I went on Haight Street and I asked someone to open a can of these stupid cherries for me and he was surprised that's the only thing I wanted is all these people attempted to get s*** for freeto get free s*** and every time I go somewhere because there's a breadline or something and you have all this mob of people attempting to get stuff everyone's like what he doesn't want anything and I'm like what what for what reason because someone made me sick because there's a payoff I don't know of or I'm not a participating in I steal sugar from cafes when I'm hungry that's about the amount that I stole and I've also stolen vitamins a couple times the rest of the time I've bitched I've complained bitterly that everyone here is an idiotis that my cherry is that the cherry on top someone gave me cancer but I don't want to pay off everyone hears a f****** moron and I just know after years of this s*** I'm going to buy shoes with my EBT money all 72 f****** dollars of it and then someone's going to go oh he bought shoes but he didn't get it from the from the church so now we're going to activate all of his things so we can deliver food while my feet are f***** up and I'm going to hobble around giving food to people who couldn't be asked to tell me that I was being f***** with or it's going to be like some other f***** up game where it's like I went to college I know how to program a computer I could be useful oh wait my hands are f***** up now and I need healthcare in my head hurts and my feet are f***** up and it's like why would you cripple anyone that comes here to do anything at all for any reason and it's because every asinine piece of s*** in the shelters and every dumb f*** person who has any disease at all wants to f*** with the guy who thinks he has it hard because all he wants is a job and he complains bitterly about society is a whole but then you can't do that or some crazy a******* will have you f****** poisoned which is part of the reason no wait it's the entire f****** reason everything here is broken oh and we're going to go with cherries because it's funny and stupid haven't had sex don't want to because everyone here is a cunt I mentioned this repeatedly because one it should mean that I don't have any diseases too it means that I don't have any X's meaning that if anyone has anything to get out out to get me for I've never dated anyone since f****** I held hands with a girl in Middle School but I'm so totally gay that's what it is I went to a gay pride parade once and I like weird p*** and I can do apologize for that forever because everyone here is so f***** up with their sexuality that they will fly a f****** rainbow flag over an abandoned building and think it's awesomeI don't know I don't even know what the f*** that is like how do you do that how do you fly any sort of flag in your city above an abandoned building and not do it to be an ironic pisshead and now I'm an art critic over stupid but then I must be a religious fanatic cuz I don't want to have sex I must be this I must be that it's like no everyone here is f****** crazy I can be super into cheese I could be the world's biggest guy in the cheese and you have me and you have me like apologizing for how much I like cheeseand that must be the reason that I'm being repeatedly poisoned because that's the one thing that makes me different than everyone else it's the stupidest f****** s*** in the world meanwhile I don't do anything to deserve any of this s*** other than believe in people when I shouldn't as in I believe that you should be a generally don't hurt people for the sake of IT person and everyone here isn't they're just they're just so awful and now all I can now I'm saying is how awful they are repeatedly that's all I'm doing so I'm going to stop and just think to myself how awful they are as I walk down the street if you see me and know who I am all I'm thinking about the entire time is God everyone here is so f****** awful and because everyone in the shelters are so sick and contagious and they use people as weapons then if you're in the shelter long enough you'll become sick and contagious so that no one wants anything to do with you and you'll hurt all the time my left side of my head it hurts all the time no matter what I do my hands are f***** up from breathing in s*** that f**** up your lungs so then that for some reason f**** up your hands in a weird way and now my feet are f***** up and if you live in the shelters for long enough this s***'ll happen and there's no way out of the shelters except through crooked counselors or gangs there's or you could run away with no money so the left side of my head hurts because of crazy people like black people that think that it's manly to sick in other people or or like coerce them either into either into sex or like sickening them and following them so that they sheer disease with you so your head hurts all the time like they're physically ill and psychotic and the other gang members encourage this s*** so it's like it's gang s*** with like disease and this is from sleeping in a shelter and and wanting to be left aloneand if I left and I got a job and I moved across the country and I had healthcare I don't know that I could fix any of this s*** like with the things the wrong with my body my head hurts physically every single moment of the day everyday for years because of because of sick that comes out of the shelters or being or being gassed at night they had a collection of masks in socks and like a f***** up shoe in a bag that I believe they were making me Huff in my sleep and because of this s*** no one will want to work in the entire city because you can't please any of the f****** shelters because everyone here is dumb as f****** bricks and then once everyone in the shelters is sick no one wants to work here at all no one who has any common sense at all. end of story no one for any reason is going to want to work and live in San Francisco if they don't want to hurt all the time for the rest of their life that would just be f****** crazy like I had no idea but now it's like all I've done is tell everyone I can how f****** awful and dangerous it is to be here no one will want to do itunless you're an immigrant fleeing from a dictatorship or you have a sick and dying relative those are the only reasons that you should stay in the city if you're working retail or are poor if you can leave and work anywhere else I would because at least you won't physically be in pain all of the time I don't know if this disease is degenerative so I'll just eventually like like one of the one of the diseases of famous person has like like f****** Rob Williams or or whatever like I don't know if this disease now that I have is is degenerative so I'll have it for the rest of my life and then slowly becoming competent and have Alzheimer'scan I picked it up from the shelters or people experimenting on the poor or somebody in the hospital giving me sick they're f****** evil every f****** one of them I've documented as much as I can but it's like they're just they're just evil people they're just they're evil broken people and there's nothing you can do to fix any of it and for someone who likes fixing things that are broken when it affects me like I got a degree in economics I spent most of my career for what I had of one thinking about societyand for people to be this f***** up or there's just no fixing them because all they want to do is hurt each other and hurt each and in such a way where they want to break everything it's calling there's like there's absolutely nothing anyone can do here so all these people who have abandoned stores who are just sitting on the property it's like yeah but why open anything why for what purpose who are you going to hire you can open a store who's going to work there you don't want to live here the people who live here by and large don't want to live here unless they have a s*** ton of money even the guys even the guys in the hills with the with the houses that are like fancy I think half of them are emptying or just sitting there as a tax write-off the entire city just is like North Korea it's like a potemkin village like the the North Korean village where none of the one or none of the stores are real and everyone's gone it's like that s** I just had an urban alchemy paramilitary douchebag asked me if I was going into a store or not so part of the thing is is maybe the cherries has to do with whether or not I will be harassed and killed by gang members that are wearing paramilitary outfits within the city of San Francisco so whether or not I have civil rights is apparently up for grabs they're black so you think they would care about this but they're also retarded so you know they can t someone made a joke about going to the back to ask for someone to open a can for me and so this is like the peace sign but reversed because it's supposed to be the hell version of whatever the f*** this is supposed to be so this is yet another b******* tree of stupid someone did the peace sign is someone asked me to go to the back as a joke and then I was harassed by a paramilitary douchebag after of course I'm complaining about giving being given food that's stupid so this is people complaining that I'm complaining because of course I can't touch or eat any of the other food because they'll poison it it's just an entire society functionally I don't I don't know like they're just they're sick is what it comes down to I didn't qualify for the peace sign because I did it wrong we're wrong is whatever that mean whatever they decide that means it's arbitrary b******* by by morons with power and I eat the green beans sitting outside the library and a kid comes out in a red shirt holding on to his dad that has an essentials fear of God shirt on and then some idiot walks by with a f****** Jason mask on and a woman walks by and whispers sorry at me while someone other idiot with a mustache and a green hat nods at me and goes into the library like it's a f****** can of green beans man like this is f****** ridiculous at some level I just don't want to be poisoned and stalked by assholes anymoreand I don't want to eat fruits and vegetables that someone is f***** up because everyone is sick or like someone poisons my food this is the most ridiculous s*** that I've ever had to deal with over like their signature select f****** no salt added cut green beans which of course has been made so that it's like funny because I cut my hand right like obviously what I'm giving this s*** and then I'm being f***** with it some level you're like oh they give me stupid food because I'm being f***** withmore you know how many calories are in this 70 f****** calories I mean how do I get f***** with this badly over 70 f****** calories unless you want me to just starve to death it's almost f***** up s*** like I don't and what like so so what like somebody can go into a restaurant and steal food I had a little old lady running to the Tibetan restaurant with a red shirt on and then I was told to go around the back and I I f****** bet that woman is getting free food just for the hell of it because they gave stupid food to the to the food pantry I went to because I'm unwilling to eat food that other sick people have touched because I've been poisoned so oftenand so some grandmother gets free food while I'm being f***** with continuously because I freaked out and it was like a payoff in food it's so f****** stupid and because of this s*** they live in squalor because no one's willing to put their foot down and say you know what I'm not giving you free s*** f*** off I don't have the choice because everyone is f****** with me I'd like to work for a living but I can't because everyone here is sick and retarded and they're just seeing if they can screw with people so they complain so they can get free s***this is a Tibetan restaurant right next to the Rams place I was lied to about a place to live across the street from an abandoned hotel and an abandoned Bank it's just I don't know I'm watching a high school class passed me sitting on the sidewalk talking to my phone and I'm like what the f*** would it even be like to be in high school right now having to deal with any of this stupid s***I didn't have to grow up around like f****** everything destroyed someone do something stupid or poison me and said it's like we're going to poison youor we're going to give you we're going to do something funny and stupid to make you look like an idiot and then if you fall for it and complain online we're going to pay off someone who's f***** with you to make it so that you look stupid and then have people go past things sorry well you have no ability to get a job or get out of squalor they're just they're just assholes like there's nothing there's nothing here it's like it's like 60 year old ladies and like gangsters that's it there's nothing elseyou're just supposed to be able to be made fun of while you're sick continuously and if you do that you get free s*** but you can only do that you only get to you only get like if you if you are willing to be made fun of then no one steal s*** and then makes you pay for it on money that would be used otherwise to get you out of town but it's so like I'm so so it's like if you if you just don't have freedom of speech for a couple like a month then it's okay but will poison you a couple times in the meantime to see if you really mean itthey're just assholes I think if they knew what they were doing and everything wasn't abandoned and destroyed I'd be like more willing to be made fun of maybe I guess but it's yet another test it's yet another oh this is how we f***** you over test having someone whisper sorry to me right after right before I'm going to be f***** over is one of these things where they do this because it's funny like a game and then you'll have something stupid happen and again like some child will get something that would otherwise help you out of your situation because you fell for a childish trick or because you were upset about something childish because you witnessed a concordance of some some way or another and then someone's going to like take their kids socks or their belongings and like sick and you to them in your sleep or some f****** thingthey're just they're assholes I know that's hard to say like like where I come from if someone is an a****** there's a reason like like not just an a****** like put like I don't like if you okay if you are in a bad neighborhood and someone is selling drugs and they ask you if you want drugs and you say no thank you that's one thing if you're selling drugs and they're your competitor then there are rules for that if you go to someone on a street corner and they're selling drugs and you harass themthey will be assholes to you all of this makes sense to me it makes complete nutter sense right like there's rules to being an a****** but every single f****** person here is a complete prick and if you do something stupid and funny it's like we'll do something stupid and funny and then if you mention it or if it bothers you after you've been poisoned and hurt all the time we're going to steal money from somewhere that's supposedly yours but no one will tell you about it but we'll hint at you that it's yours just to see if we can f*** with youbut then like if it bothers you that this stupid thing happens then later on if you do anything out of the ordinary at all you'll be poisoned or drugged because you've written the rules for which you will be hurt and then that's like privilege somehow when it's just gaslighting and pricks see because I don't like being poisoned and made fun of the fact and then I'll b**** about it later someone will go ah but see now we can do this other thing for which he complained about this so we'll do this and then if you complains again we'll poison him when he walks around the street cornerit's like that s*** f****** anywhere if I do anything at all and I'm now walking into the library where everyone was acting stupid not 5 minutes ago after I ate a can of green beans just so I can take a s*** and then I get to see if I can find a computer that hasn't been sickened and I have to stare at it real close because someone hit me in the face last night so I would cause a commotion so someone else would have the opportunity to steal the pair of glasses that I have it took me 3 months to get did I get from a Chinese shop and I don't know if the Chinese shop gave me glasses that would make my head hurt or not just to do itor you would give some glasses and then tell everyone he's wearing stupid glasses because either he's schizophrenic or he's making fun of people while he's wearing the glasses because he's making fun of people that have that that act stupid right and so you can't wear stupid stupid black chunky looking glasses because then everyone will think you're making fun of them because everyone here is psychotic and can't be trusted to wear clothing because once your psychotic and start poisoning each other everything becomes a means of communicationabout whether or not your friends and can be trusted not to f****** poison each other but see I'm capable of walking down the street and not acting like an idiot even if I'm not wearing my glasses and therefore I must have f****** superpowers so I've seen this s*** before what this is is and it's one of these things where you're supposed to freakout about it and then this proves that youre against freedom. they just have someone ghostwrite a douchebags long form article and then see if they can fixk with you to the contents - see all the belching shit and teferences to schopenhour - since im not bored i mist have a "flight from pain". see here https://www.newstatesman.com/ideas/2025/04/the-west-is-bored-to-death. in this way its the same stupid shit where you gaslight someone and then tell them how you did the joke afterwards after the payoff has occurred and rhen some butch whispers sorry to you on a street corner after youve been sickened repeatedly for money or as a joke by gangs. theyre fucking psychotic. its a merry oranksters rhemed shir because you get an asshole rhat gets to have a ghost wrirren article as a payoff for some scam and therefore gets to feel self important, you have rhe guys that fo the work that get to be anonymous and woek on something they care about and rhen you poison the guy everyone dislikes to a joke and if he says anything he must be crazy. meanwhile there are enough callbacks so that he knows how he was poisoned and cant do anything about it. but its "funny" and if he says anything you can use this as an excuse that he must have been crazy the entiee time and then have him poisoned with something like he "bought it" so hes dumber or more unhinged than before he said something. its obnoxiously shitty. this tends to correlate with posts on hackernews about archaelogical discoveriesbecause theyre old. theres some anecdotal evidence that the sick and crazy people think that i believe in schooenhoure in order to vacillate me between i jave money and therefore am bored and eant to be harasses and i dont have money and should be in pain. or something. again its arfuing with what i belove is wrong with crazy people in order to find a way to prevent them from hurting myself or others because theyre insane.and some self-important dick head went past using the Norman Rockwell shirt unzip s*** so I don't know maybe maybe it's like yeah it's freedom of speech we just drug this guy with all the drugs that that would make him make him be able to write a wonderful piece about s***** doesn't know about well torturing you in a homeless shelter but it's Norman Rockwell I mean at least it was on the back end right like at least it was like they just did all the drugs and then made it to the heated all the drugs by proxyrather than like Ghost Rider and send it to him that should be ghost right whatever I know I'm going to be f***** with to a ghostwriter costume or Ghost Rider f****** comic book again or something I mean what they do is they drug up kids they seeking you to the kids after getting all of what you have that's sick or good and then sickening someone who's going to like transport it to some tourist who is going to then go run back off and write an article and make money from it it's not illegal it's just killing people who don't have enough influence to like have a bunch of people drug people to death that they don't like and then transport it to someone who's sick like Corey f****** doctor oh so I don't know what this has to do with open hour other than it's just biological illness so I guess maybe it could be a combination of f****** with me to shopenhower or whatever the f*** his name is and then seeing if you could drug me at the same time so this guy could write it I do know that anytime I have money I'm being f***** with and anytime I don't everyone acts upset so it's just a matter of like oh you were interested in philosophy cool let's take this guy's philosophy and then see if we can like f*** with you to it to like f****** your head that smells likely the most reasonable explanation because these are people who are really into the Bible and so they're like this particular brand of stupid has lasted for 2,000 years and people like it and it's like you know it works and this particular brand of stupid over here will drive you crazywhich you could just have someone explain to me rather than poison me and torture me for years although I wrote a philosophy that no one cares about and no one is willing to engage in or talk to me about so that's cool not that I would want to after I've been poisoned and tortured so that's what bipolar is it's a joke because he buys things and it's a pool whether he buys things or he doesn't buy things it's a joke but based on schopenhower so it's gaslighting and stupid from my parents and for my family and from everyone involved it's just a complete a******so but then it's but then I'm complaining about freedom of speech never mind that I'm being f***** with based on whether or not I have money even to the extent of like if I have a dollar bill and I touch it in public then people will run out of the library with their children putting their hair up in a bun like their child wasn't gassed with the right drugs and they're upset but that's normal that's that's totally fine that's that's an everyday thing that doesn't have anything to do with anythingso it's just an attack of idiots or people using idiots that are sick to attack each other for me so here's a bunch of idiots that that are sick that'll do anything and then they'll f*** everything up here you go and then they just those are all the people that are in San Francisco and then if you have any kind of belief system at all that they're schizophrenic or they're literalists like to the absolute extent possible and so they won't know what to do no matter what you do and so you just end up drowning an idiotthat should be an idiot not an idiot although in this case and as an i n whatever in this case it applies to both supply seeing as I'm the idiot that doesn't know how to get out of this f*** hole I'm wandering around wearing these stupid shoes that are f****** up my feet and anytime I complain about anything whatsoever like I complain about this article right so that'll that that now means that in the future a bunch of idiots that people call spiders because they spy and they go through will follow me around and see if I do the thing for which I complained about and then drug meand it's more f****** Mary prankster b******* when all I wanted to do at all for any reason is come to San Francisco get a job working at a coffee shop and then get a job as a programmer working on the next coolest hottest s*** or maybe an engineer or maybe gluing together parts for robots or something and instead I'm hobbling around looking for a can opener and then if I eat the food people will think it's magic and run around with their hair on fire I can't wear sandals because they can't sell $5 flip flops that won't poison your feet and so I'm wandering around bear streetsI'm wondering around streets with bare feet that are bleeding there's nothing here it's f****** crazy everyone here is just I open this can of f****** off brand fruit and I eat it I have no f****** idea what to expect like I ain't green beans a woman walks past saying I'm sorry a guy in a Jason mask shows up like what the f*** man cuz I cut my hand and it's funny like green beans this is stupid it's so f****** dumb but see I see how this relates to shopping hour see I must be bored right I must be bored and wealthy and therefore if I find something stupidthen someone can steal money by getting free food somewhere for which I don't have the money to pay right but if I complain they'll get free food and claim that somehow I I'm the one that I'm the one that's paying for this or someone else is paying for this right because I must be bored because I'm complaining about stupid things and therefore I must have money because if you're poor you can't complain about stupid things see I've decoded stupid I've decoded I've decoded greedy a****** piece of s*** dumb f***isn't this wonderful are we all happy now you can't complain about being mistreated or treated like a second-class citizen or having any of the dumb f*** assholes who are flashing the peace sign oh wonderful the peace sign is f****** shopping hour that's what it is it's a 60-year-old misinterpretation of a 200-year-old bad philosophy which is based on Christianity which he didn't understand in the first place mostly because the first rule of fight club is don't be a f****** a****** and not a single piece of s*** in the entire city with say anything that's the thing that bothers me the most I think is that you have a city of a million people where people are getting f***** over and the laugh about it and they won't say a God damn f****** thing if I see someone being poisoned to harassed on the street for years and I know the guy and he's screaming and I see him everyday and I'm it's like rather than say something I'm going to f*** him over for a free hamburger they're just f****** assholesbut you do that s*** for a week but you f*** with a guy for like a couple weeks and then maybe get hit them but this s*** it's like f*** this there's no reason that anyone would come here because it's like you pull this s*** on one guy whose major claim to fame is that he jerks off too much what's someone going to do if they come here and there's anything wrong with them in any way whatsoever it's like it's like worse than that it's like you cheated on your wife what is it what's going to happen if they come to San Francisco he's going to get his balls cut off and shoved down his throat like the f*** they they have no self-conception of like we should do this because it's in our best interest they just f*** people over for money if I wanted to f*** people over for money I'd be anywhere but here I wouldn't have traveled the world and seen all sorts of crazy s*** I wouldn't have done all of the things that I did I'd have done a legal s*** because it's easier to make money that way I'd have sold drugs or f****** I don't even know but even selling drugs they're not good at I mean if you they don't know howlike how do you live in San Francisco and not know how to sell drugs I mean not everyone but like a city known for they just don't have any conception they don't have any like they're not good at religion they're not good at selling drugs they're not good at commerce they're unfriendly they'd rather you die than tell you you're sick or that people are f****** with you they're so they're so myopic and they won't leave their neighborhoods if they live in one neighborhood that's a mile from another neighborhood they won't walk to that part of the citylike I grew up in a city where I grew up in a suburb where you couldn't like it was just nothing but suburbs you couldn't go from one place to another it wasn't possible but people won't physically there are people who have never left like the neighborhood in which they live like the district of San Francisco of which they live to travel or do anything in any other district for any reason like there's people who've never gone out to eat in the tenderloin while they live here like a restaurant or shoppingthere's people who live in South of market that don't go north of market for any reason and not even like not even like just poor sick or crazy people like people who live here live here like people normal people considering I don't I don't there's something wrong there's something desperately wrong with the people here oh it is probably s*** they pulled on my sister too because her name is Celeste so it sounds like sail ski whatever she her name is not Celeste it's her last name is her last name sounds like sales key it doesn't matter but sales ski and shopping hours similar this was probably one of those things I mentioned while I was being gas in the shelter and I was surrounded by people acting like morons that I was reading philosophy and then I was like I wonder if that's the way they f***** with my sisterso I just you know at this point it's like how do you how do you like I don't know I I don't stop being the same person I just get sicker and then people steal as much s*** as they can for me but I'm passing the urban alchemy gorilla outfit headquarters across the street from the prism abandoned building complex f*** it whatever it doesn't matter they're just so f****** stupid people are pantomiming this s*** on the street to me about like and again like the guy went past with the Norman Rockwell shirt on so I know if I say anything I'll be f***** with but I don't give a f*** so if someone does enough drugs and you f*** him up enough they'll sit on the street and go way way and then they don't have anything and people will give them a cigarettes and drugs because they've shot their immune system or they're like neurobiology and then after they have enough drugs they go hunting around for like free s***I don't care to know the rest of this it's f***** up and an incredibly bad idea of how to treat people it's the literal born again but like this street version of something or other it's just dumb it just it's and it's funny because you give them f***** up shoes and you give them f***** up flip flops because it's the cheapest thing you can buy at Target or you screw up their head so that it's the cheapest thing that they can go and do and it's like born again but only if you do the wrong drugs I bought a joint from American Roots which f***** up my head which I bought with money and smoked and smoked a little bit of because it was like 35 or 40% THC so that's the other thing if you buy drugs in the city like the legal s*** the mushroom shirts will f*** you up the mushroom coffee will f*** you up the like joints half of them aren't safe oh here's the other thing that's f***** up if you look on the internet for types of pot and then compare it to what's available in the city many of the types and brands of Potter on listed and they'll have pot that has up to 50% THC which is like how the f*** is that even possible that must be a lie because likeit's like that I don't think that's even possible which means that the like the anyway the joint f***** me up and I don't know maybe that's the cause of my headaches but that was like a legal joint that I had half of 3 years ago from American roots but that must mean that I'm a crazy drug using douchebag cuz I smoked half a joint while I was poor and in a shelter because at that point I may have may have crazily assumed that it was possible to make friends with the poor who I was living with if we could reminisce over a joint or somethingfar be it from me to like do as the Romans do when I'm in Rome but oh wait it's San Francisco and everyone here is a crackhead whoever is claiming to be my mom but won't let me but won't send me numbers of relatives and Friends and won't send a picture of herself or my dad so I don't know that they're alive or an AI made a crack about the difference between Benjamin Franklin and John Adams after making another joke which I assume comes from 1984 about a three-legged dog don't ask in any case I'm assuming that the joke here is that John Adams and Benjamin Franklin didn't get along because oh it's funny based on shopping hour and the peace signand then this is a joke about French the friend the French and the peace sign back in the seventies which is stupid because it's entirely possible to have money and not be a douchebag at the same time just as possible to be poor and be a complete a******there are two choices of which there are four combinations yes I would like money I would also like it to be spent ethically into earn it ethically rather than sweepstreets or be a paramilitary security guard that hurts the poor nor do I want to diethe streets are so swept at this point that like I'm walking around barefoot and it's healthier than wearing my shoes so no I don't want to like have f***** up feet and then beg for shoes for my shoe store and then old people favors I just I don't care I'll just wait two weeks while I don't have any food anymore or I'll wait a week while I don't have any food anymore and starve myself again like into the last time until I have enough money to buy shoes again from the government and I just it's like you went over your budget for EBT you must be a terrible person it's like a b**** I need a job and and there aren't any and I need medicine and there isn't any and someone assaulted me and stole my glasses which I can't replace just there's no way I can dig myself out of this from nothing and no support so I might as well not even give a s*** as I was walking back to the shelter while I'm walking back to the shelter now and they had a bunch of they had this f****** crazy they had the the fire department chased someone around the block with a the lights on chasing some guy in a in a it was obviously sick in a in a green hoodie with his hood up over a baseball cap the cheese people around with the f****** sirens and s*** rather than be like they do that because they don't have cause to arrest someone that has plagues so they just chase them around with a fire truckI wish I was making this s*** up but I'm not it's so f****** I don't even know what the f*** to even call that s*** in the shelter at 525 5th Street and someone is poisoned my belongings again so I'm lying in sick they can't feed the poor they can't provide clothes they don't have any shoes they just sicken and mislead people so now I'm dying and I don't know what's wrong with my head and I'm s******* at whatever food they gave me that was funny as a joke they're just all assholes the shelter d******* are quoting things from my mom or what my mom used to say because they managed to rifle through all the things she ever said is a quote and then her quoting that s*** to each other while they're sick I'm sure you can come up with a quote that would be cool and funnyand then killed someone to it if you tried hard enough maybe you can find a cool quote and then hang yourself say something cool and inspiring and then hanging yourself from the rafter of this s*** hole how about that so somebody managed to find everything my parents used to say is a quote or theyre data mining my parents and I don't know if they're alive or dead or not and then they'll repeatedly thicken my pillows and sheets in the in the f****** shelter so the guy they had chase down the street in a green hoodie with a cap on with a f****** fire truck may have snuck into the shelter and coughed all over my s*** and they do that s*** rather than you know fight plague in a way that makes any kind of sense and see how f****** n****** that are looking at their at their goddamn f****** phones seeing if they won the lottery as I lie down and filth because they want to see if the screwed up in entangled f****** phone network is going to tell them that the that the through their social media feed that someone managed to get drugs or sex or something so that they can get that s*** too and they're sitting around with their masks around their necks like can I run out of here and do and and put a mask on and running over here in cough on just someone in the right way to get drugs to get to get sick and just the right way meanwhile every d****** that has moneyis running around with stupid shirts rather than fix anything but like like an o and o is like you having Halo in an ex is like you see how you're sick and then you're an ex with the world or x with Justice or some f****** thing and it's like Jennifer Egan's visit from a from the goon squad and x's and o's isn't that cool still my favorite book and I don't remember in the book where they managed to chase people around with a fire truck that had plague the person at the fire truck the person not the fire truckbut I'm assuming this is funny because that's why the woman walked up to me while I was sitting by the side of the road eating out of a can and whisper sorry at me because it's yet another book I read that I thought was cool and like but it's not the f****** Bible so let's see if we can poison me to that s***meanwhile every d****** that's going around poisoning each other is doing everything possible to prove that anyone that reads any sort of religion and then acts on it is dumber than a bag of f****** dead cats oh I'm so totally sorry I believe in a loving and ever just God and that's why I decided to to take all the things you ever said warp them in a f***** up way and then have you and everyone else in the city of a million people poisoned repeatedly and that's why God loves you even clicking on anything on my f****** bugged phone on the social media s*** just changes all of the social media on everyone else's phone and then they cough and grunt to themselves it's just like I don't this place is such a f****** s*** hole it as soon as I leave they're going to take all the suggestions of all this s*** that I've told them not to do like and then they're going to fix all of it with s*** tons of money they used by I don't even know what the f*** laundering money through arms dealing like money they made from illicit like f****** biomedical studies just all that s*** and they're going to make a paradise for Rich Twinkies and I'm going to be somewhere else and it'll have been turned to s*** in the meantime also the /lit/ 4chan board and the songs by the band named lit because lets fuck with people to song lyrics and names see also the capital riots and people throwing stupid zip ties on the ground. the fucking with people to albums os so fucking obnoxious "because you have a 'record'" ots bullshit sharow jail involving gaslighting and drugging by crazy people. its fucking hidious shit. i lit a paper roll on fire while people were setting gins off in a homeless shelter five years ago and now im filled with cripling illness and everyone i know has abandoned me. but its like "lit". its yet more fucking stupid. no im not "into" this stupid crazy shit - i dont have any interest in learning the lyrics of every fucking band or somg title i can be screwed eith to. theure all so fucking stupid and evil. rather than have anyone tell me they were pissed off or angry and upset st me i get to find out after someone fucks with me for years based on fucking song lyrics? while crippling me? how morally incompetent do you have to be- you cant express your feelings in words? the fuck? so here's the next stupid one which I know that is a thing but they'll do is they had me hit they had someone hit me in the shelter so I complained then they stole my glasses and they're going to give it to some idiot that's going to go to burning man that looks like me and it has a similar name and then take all the ideas from this site and tell it to someone important and then getting money so that's the next stupid dumb f*** thing it'll be like Peter Ryan but like the guy's name will have an i in it or some f****** thingand then the guy will be healthy because they haven't spent 3 years crippling him and then it'll say all the ideas for which are useful and then he'll be incompetent because you'll just steal s*** from other people and they won't have anything new and then they'll do it to the next guy this place is such a s*** hole the only thing they're good at is killing researchers or killing people that come up with ideas for a living or want to write a book or something I don't know the entire place is to give you this idea that you can come here and make a living based on you based on what you know and then everybody who come here it's just f***** over by everyone who's waiting for the next idiot to come along and thinks he is he has a good idea so they can sicken him to death so it's it's going to be like steal my glasses give it to some idiot that looks like me have that idiot do something stupid or steal my identity in some way that isn't illegal it's just they're just such f****** awful people I went to burning man once cool now all I want is to be as far away from here as possible I want to live in Vermont in a house where I don't have to talk to other people they're just they're just assholes one of the things that you'll find with the black schizophrenics is that they're into sickening you and then in the music so they'll stick in you so that your head hurts and then follow you around with music and attempt to make you sick so that hearing music physically will make it so you can't think so this is happening in the shelter at 525 5th Street I just was done in the bathroom and then I went back to my my bed and someone had put poison on it again or coughed on it so I'll have to I'll just I'll call the cops and let them knowI most likely will have to contact the CDC again so let's that's something to do I left a message on the CDC answering machine for what it's worth one of the things they may be doing and I've seen this elsewhere in government is they'll say you can't leave a message unless you're a doctor and then if your schizoaffective then you might not push that button because you're liable to be more manipulable to like words or magic and so it's it's like a filter for people who are who are so sick that they can't differentiate between between words and magic anymore I don't know if they check their messages I might call back tomorrowagain it's one of these things where it's like did I did I hit the right magic button and go through the bureaucracy in the right way to find someone who could who has any kind of like medical experience they could like figure out what's wrong with the shelter and get people here who are sick into a hospital like I don't know I mean at this point they're chasing people around with fire trucks with the sirens going because the people who have audio illness who like run away like I like most people here including almost everyone in government is completely incompetentI mean I'm saying this when the president just made it so that no one can ship packages without declaring a terrifying so like several countries have just denied shipping mail to the United States like I don't I don't have any beliefs that there's like any level of competency to do basic things to prevent plague I am at a loss of what to do so I lay down on my pillow it 7:00 in the morning and someone is sickened it again and then runs out and with a mask on so I called the CDC I left a message I left a message with the OD and I which is the office of department of national intelligence I've been s******* cherries because of course that's the only thing they had to eat that was in a can at the food pantry that was open yesterday so I mean I don't know what to say like essentially like if I go to any other shelter they're all run by gangsters who are who are using sick to hurt each otheror I could just ask random people for help while many people are gaslighting me and lying to me about what's happening so I mean I'll continue to contact the CDC I may just call them again sometime today I don't know what else to do maybe they're open on Sundays I don't know but I mean again like I was just sick and where somebody will cough on my things and then I'll lie on it and then they'll wear a mask and the guy is obviously sick but like they'll use again I've I've mentioned this before but they use the mask as a way ofharboring sick so what they'll do is look cough on someone they'll put a mask on and in the run across the city and have someone cough on them put the mask on and then so they use themselves as a carrier for the virus because they don't want anyone coughing on them in the meantime and I have no idea what it is like you know I'm not I'm not in an infectious disease and like expert but I can tell when I'm being made sick so that my head hurts it's some sort of disease to the point where it can be absorbed through your skin and your hairor if you like lie down on a pillow that someone is coughed on one of the things I do and and that I've seen other people do on the shelters is that if this happens where someone will call for sick in their things they'll take their sheets and they'll like they'll like wave it out in public so that the sick is everywhere and then you can't and then you can't like sick and only one person and and so you know that might have some sort of like that might work somehow I haven't been attempting to wash my things with the soap in the shelter but I believe the soap may they may have they may know that people do that and then they like screw with this soap because the soap container has like stupid stickers on it that are childish or that it's from like some some like like if you open the open the hand dispenser and then you look at the soap it's from a it's from like a distributor you've never heard of it has a stupid name so you don't you don't have any idea of like the soap will make you even worse like more sick because there's something wrong with it so the old guy who came in recently he was in the shelter did they just brought in who may be sick or mentally ill for both you can tell cuz his hands are inflamed that's one of the signs so the hand disease is maybe part of the sign of the sickness while I'm flapping the sheet he wanders around like confused somehow so one of the things that like if you do something for which someone has been sickened sometimes that sick person will show up and you don't know why and I you know I can't explain it I have no idea how it works if someone has been sickened so that like a particular brand of candy will be like every time they eat the candy someone did drugs around them or the candy or something if you eat the candy and had drugs done around you they'll show up and you won't know why I have absolutely no explanation for this it sounds bizarre and it is but like if I at one point if I ate takatios which is some sort of candy and I threw the chips on the ground someone would show up that was sick and and then freak out that I had done that things like that you know I don't know if it'sI think it's a combination of everyone being sick and then being easily manipulated by a suggestion because of brain disease and then everyone's manipulating each other until it reaches the person for which it would cause them to create an action or something so I don't like I don't like I do something it makes someone else do something it makes someone else do something it makes someone else do something and then someone along the chain of causation comes along and see the sees the food on the ground and freaks out I don't knowI don't know that I can come up with a rational explanation for this it's just an observation again my things have been sickened and it's it's probably this old guy who's sick and it's like what do you do do you like hit him like what are you what are you supposed to do cuz again there's only so many shelters in the city they're all run by gangs and then they use old people and people who are sick as weapons so if I go to another shelter the same problem will happen again and the other thing is is like you like the police and the and the city doesn't know what to do because they're chasing people around with fire engines like cuz you can't you can't arrest people for being sick so unless you have a way of dealing with plague that doesn't involve like if you're poor you're going to get played I don't know what else like I don't know what the solution is like I'm not going to do drugs to prove that I'm not old because I don't trust the drugs in the city many people have done that sort of thing where they're like if you're going to make me sick I'll just be high all the time and then you can't use me as a biological piggy bank by likemaking me sick have me do something interesting and then have me be sickened again after you find out what I did and like how it made me feel and like what neurobiology it was required and s*** like that so like I believe that a large amount of the drugs even legally sold in the city will make you sick because people have been doing drugs like like marijuana which is lately regulated because people have been doing drugs every time they're sickened and then the people who like sickening each other get upset and then pollute the drug supply so so even if I wanted to do that even if I wanted to be high all the time it just it would just make me sick and I've mentioned before the large amount of the drugs that are in the city aren't drugs you can find on the internet even in the marijuana and the mushrooms so like given that the quality control of the drugs that you would be taking means you can't even research if they're any good or notanother one I find these when I can and then I mention them so you're going to surround someone with b******* and then it's a joke to permutation City which is a novel by greggy Greg summer other Greg Egan so again this is one of these things where it's like you're going to surround someone with b******* having to do with song lyrics or a movie or a book and then you're going to have someone followed by people like mimicking parts of the book around them because they're stuck in the past that's the other thing that that's popular is that if someone doesn't act homeless enoughor doesn't do what you want what you'll do is you'll you'll try and stalk them so that you can manipulate there behavior in order to like make them psychotic while you drug them or while you make them sick in the shelters so one of the examples is is to where like women like doing this s*** for whatever reason and it's incredibly nasty like I don't I don't understand the the point because it just proves that everyone in the city is like mentally ill but if you find someone that's acting old-fashioned or if you want to like screw with them so that they only care about things from like the 1990s you'll have a bunch of your friends follow the guy around and then wear clothing is only fashionable was only fashionable in the 1990s which is like it's psychotic I don't understand why you would do that in some sense what what it is is you want to this goes back to not wanting to allow someone to participate in the economy at all so if you prevent someone from like being a food delivery driver or like getting money you can prevent them from shopping at the same stores that you do because someone will save up enough money like if someone is a delivery driver or like or like his homeless and then makes money they'll save up in order to buy expensive things but then you have to be buying expensive things in socializing with people in the stores with people who are like you know sick or that you've made ill or that you don't like and so it's a sort of social control involving psychotic manipulation and then you have to read the book or find out like you know so for example I'll give you an example in the permutation City book right he finds out he's living in a permutation or in a in a matrix style thing because he cuts himself and there's a drop of blood so if you cut yourself and there's a drop of blood that's not like in the book right then it proves that you're not in the book in a stupid way and then everyone will laugh and say oh well you're not in this book it's not a science fiction setting it's real life etc which is also one of the like the story arcs and a childish movie about time travel with dwarves or something I forget it's like like time thieves or time something or other where there's this island and everyone is non-violent except if there's a drop of blood and then and then there's a drop of blood and then the island sinks so if you so this is correlating like another set of of b******* most of the b******* happens to be around correlating a gas lighting experiment having to do with one ideology so if this ideology happens to be like the matrix permutation City non-violence versus violence and then maybe science fiction in some sense then there could be another b******* circle that would have to do with creativity art fantasy and then there could be a fantasy novel mixed with a fantasy movie in which you have to know and read about that particular thing and then the out is I don't know spending $10 in getting a ring in your ear but it's the ring in the different ear than the character in the book and therefore you prove in some stupid sense that you're not the character in the book and therefore you have an out and so this is similar in many respects to I can read a book and act normal while also not wearing my glasses again like it's this sort of a reaction against psychoticism and people who are schizoaffective and find concordance in stupid things by doing the opposite of what they would do even if that itselfis stupid and doesn't make any sense so it's in some sense appeasing psychoticism and illness by showing that there is a difference between yourself and the and the psychotic in much the same way that derida would describe the difference and the difference itself proves that the two extremes exist whereas if you act normal you can't do that because otherwise someone will repeatedly poison you and so this philosophical conceit is no more valid than say having someone manipulate you to shop an hourto shop an hour which is which is like boredom versus like excitement and I'm reading all of this and then I'm like looking up authenticity on Wikipedia and there's an argument between like Sartre and adorno which about jazz which for all of that reminds me of the ending to La La Land so like I'm looking at this through like a philosophical lens right when we talk about lenses you think of like what ground you stand on for which you compare the other thing because you have to have you have to have a firm base for which you compare something to with that which you hold as truth and and philosophy is a good base for that because it's among other things so battle tested and it's been around for so long as his religion in many cases but I prefer philosophy so in this sense like in either case you're looking at what's essentially like and I've called this a multi-layered b******* circle what you're looking at is many layers of obfuscation based on like here is the game for which we are screwing you with and then here's the out for which you still have to play the game in order to make the game stop and then by doing soyou validate that the game itself exists and that you have to rely on other people and then the people around you are on trustworthy but by doing so and understanding this at a larger level you understand that the people in the city of San Francisco and the people around you are immoral and because you're surrounded by immoral people that itself is supposed to make you have a realization that you should yourself act immorally and then that goes back to is this an authentic self or are you in a position wherewhere you have to say no I'm not like the people around me or yes I am like the people around me and then act morally or immorally given that the people around you are bad people and then that becomes a question of like is this heaven or is this hell depending upon how you act in the situation in which you are in where everyone around you is a bad person and so in some sense it's like a it's a personality test to see how good or bad of a person you are by people who are hurting you which makes it a gaslighting social experiment no no different than say the Stanford prison experiment except more obtuse and more I would I would say immoral because it's harder to define on purpose and and so you know it it's not essentially so that people who have money are able to use the poor as a biological backup to experiment on and also to like if they get sick they can put the sick on the poor and then have all the people who are attempting to prevent sick from getting everywhere stop looking at them because at some level like money doesn't solve sickand so they they use their money and their influence to use the poor is like chafe like like on a fighter jet like when when someone shoots a missile at a fighter you you put chafe out the back this is what they use the poor as when it comes to illness and so all of this like media and all of this and all of this like obfuscation based on stories and narratives it's just it's an attempt to prevent what's what's going on which is that elderly people who are sick just want to use the poor as a way ofmaking it so that like they can get away with being sick and contagious in such a way that it would hurt the community at Large and then just use the four to like make the CDC go away the only problem with this is that it doesn't prevent plague and if there is plague then you need to find like what the illness factor is regardless of money so for example like if there's something that only rich people do that makes everyone else sick like let's take a trivially silly example right let's say that if you eat caviarlet's say that if you eat caviar you'll have sick that will make you incredibly contagious to everyone else and that the rich would then make it so that the poor would be sick so that the CDC wouldn't look at them but would go around chasing the poor so it's true that the CDC needs to work on the poor right to find out where the illness vector is but money isn't a solution to this problem because the original source of the illness is something that the rich would do so money is orthogonal to this rightand further if if there's a social engineering situation in which the poor use the homeless either to experiment on biologically for for novel drugs in in a research pipeline or they just use them as biological weapons to hurt people they don't like that means that you have a contagion vector in San Francisco that can be used to hurt as many people as possible depending on the whims of people who have money or who have power and the problem with this is that usually when you have someone to attack someone else with guns or violence there is some sort of accountability right like if you if you have someone shoot someone else you can arrest them if you have someone sick in someone else and then a bunch of people get sick and die you can't do that so I'm not going to make references to the four horsemen of the Apocalypse and greed versus famine versus sickness I just I don't you know I don't care the thing is is I need to know how I'm being made sick and how to make it stop so that I can get on with my life and I keep seeing these narratives that are being used to sicken the poor as a social engineering experiment and going oh okay so this is how you do this another thing that's interesting to note is that right around 2000 a bunch of people thought the world was going to end and so there were a bunch of books and media that were all like how do we get these group of people and screw them over because if you have a bunch of people that think the world is going to end and they're not contributing to society you can use you can use their fear and you can use their stupidity to make them cluster in a group cut ties with other people and then once you do that you can you can sicken them because they have a smaller social graph and so because of this you can sicken them and the sickness won't get out of their social graph essentially so it's a way of having illness in a bucket that you can then tap into anytime you want and you form to collection or a cohort of people that you can then use as a weapon so this I believe tends to happen anytime there's a collection of people that are millinarianists or believe that the world is going to end or something terrible will happenand so that may be happening now both with artificial intelligence and with climate change where you have a large number of people becoming extraordinarily wealthy and then you have massive inflation at the same time and so when I read things like permutation city which came out in 1994 what I'm seeing is in some sense like the novel that inspired the 1994 novel that inspired the 1999 movie that was about people who were trapped in a simulation because they realized in some sense that their social graph had been isolated and then this and then this is fiction that is talking about what the mindset is or the belief system is of people that feel isolated in a system because they're fearful of the future and so by cutting ties with other people it makes them more vulnerable to being in cohorts that will then be sickened so there's that aspect the other aspect is that if you get a collection of people that are fearful of the future or that are only believe in a certain subset of media or narrative then you can make it so that they only like in this this is a canard or like a trope about getting older but they only like a certain type of media they only like a certain type of narrative and because of that and because of that what happens is they see the connections and the social history between like they see how this collection of authors were all influenced together and they had a social history that had to do with this time period and this cohort and when a new time period in a new court comes along they no longer are able to see themselves reflected in the ideology of that cohort and so the narrative doesn't make as much sense anymore in some aspects are in some respects science fiction is easier to see this than in other in other novelsmostly because John renovels are that should be genres and g e n r e but in some respects John renovels are such that they have like a singular idea or collection of ideas that then influences the novel itself and so I would say from like 1980 to like 1994 or thereabouts you had this idea of a simulation or being in the matrix or the internet as like a virtual environment and now that's commonplace whereas in the 1950s what you had is everything was about space right everything was about being in a spaceship and going to another planet and and now that itself is more commonplace it's not something for which you would aspire to like most most science fiction is aspirational in terms of an engineering perspective but these aren't aspirational pushing the boundaries of science tropes or ideas anymore one of the things that's interesting to note is that there's been a turn in science fiction I would say from 94 maybe to the 2010s of like dystopian science fiction but that that itself is like a cohort of things for which people would read aboutand that may be distinct in some way from an adventure novel having to do with virtual reality but all of that is to say what now is the science fiction that's aspirational in much the way that Jules Verne would be aspirational about say a submarine from what I understand like much of science fiction that I've seen maybe in the last 15 years has been about specifically social sort of like a left-wing social critique of society so you'll have like this is science fiction but it talks about like what science fiction means to a gay Hispanic value or this is science fiction but it's what is science fiction mean as as regards to feminism and black and black lives but in some sense much of this is like orthogonal to what science fiction is in terms of pushing the boundaries of like what science is so now I want to know what that is what do people aspire to in the future I think there was an idea at some point that new sincerity was going to be a thing and I don't know anything about that other than I don't know culturally if that still exists all of which is incredibly naval gazing other than to say that once you see the b******* circle and that b******* circles exist you become interested in the fact that b******* circles exist because they're an interesting phenomenon in themselves none of which is to say that science fiction hasn't been a social critique from the beginning I just find the social critique being done today strange and weird and I don't know it just doesn't resonate also there's another thing that's interesting which is science fiction no longer seems to be what what's most someone I don't know if this is I can find this but somebody said there's a statistic where like the most novels that exist today is science fiction among almost anything else and that used to be the complete polar opposite of what used to be trueand so if that's the case and you're interested in in and you're interested in what happens to be the undercurrent of society in the first place like you're interested in what's what's weird or what may be like the future trend of what people think is interesting in art what would that be I don't know I'm going off on tangents at this point the main thrust of what I was saying is essentially that the the b******* circles about past art like you'll take a subset of art or Media or something and you'll surround someone with itthat's that's the way that you screw with someone that you think is uncreative or that doesn't give enough Credence or or I don't know what the word is doesn't give enough credit for artists for being intelligent and then you use the left hand subtextual information in art in order to critique the person until they find out the way they're being screwed with and then you play this song or you show them the book or you show them the movie and then you laugh at them after you've drugged them and given and gotten away with sickening them for money for a bed or something and you do this repeatedly until the person is so ill that the only job they can get because they've been crippled is like pushing a broom and they can't contribute to society and anyone that you think is cool can contribute to society but like being an engineer where the main qualification for being an engineer is you haven't been crippled by a bunch of idiots but once you make that the rules of society then being an engineer working on hard problems isn't the way that you have power because it's not no longer a meritocracy the way that you have power or have the ability to affect society is how much you can get away with hurting other people in a way that's cleverand once you have that it's essentially one of these things is like that's the way that society ends because you have a large amount of it's it's essentially like instead of increasing the pile of money or increasing the means that everyone has you have a big pile of money in the center and then everyone is running at it and it's all how much backstabbing is involved in order to get only the people that are your friends to have your share of the wealth and screw everyone else over and because AI is exponential and and climate change in the environment and so on is a finite resource everyone is more or less decided that this is what's going to happen is that it's who can screw each other over for as much of the limited share of resources of a dwindling supplies available oh I should note that along with all the other b******* the homeless will go around and drop quarters around me which can either stand for the four horsemen of the Apocalypse or the four Norman Rockwell paintings of which you can only choose one because it's like a quarter but if they stop dropping the quarters then they'll drop the quarter for real so it's one of these things where it's like the difference between the metaphorical and the real and then it's either the metaphor or the literalness but even then that's a b******* thing right like that's awe're going to seeking you repeatedly and then do the thing for which one we stop doing it that's the thing that will happen to you again I went and I used the restroom and my pillows and my blankets were sickened so I need to shake them out so that everybody else gets sick to whatever someone coughed on my blankets on this is just getting up to use the restroom again they're psychotic and sick and the CDC needs to be here along with the police I've mentioned this before but after you've been sickened they'll go around it's it's like a joke on like a stone age man or like a caveman and they'll they'll communicate with you via a series of grunts burps yawns and s*** like that and so you'll be sick and see your head hurts via illness and then you'll have groups of people f****** with you based on going around and doing stupid s*** like that so again like this is contagion it requires the CDC so that other people in the population aren't hurt it's gangster it's gangsterism mixed with pathological violence and sickness what what they attempt to do here is they want to make it so that your entire body is ill so for example your hands are f***** up and and so if you like you're one of the things with the hand illness that I have is that I'm not shedding skin cells the other thing is is that I'm not sweating if I eat the food here and so they they attempt to do is make it so that your entire body is like essentially doesn't doesn't decompose or get other people sick to what you have and there and therefore you can be isolated biochemically from everyone else and therefore if you are sickened you can't thicken other people in return and so you're like a you're like a you're like a biological dead end essentially so you can be killed the only alternative and the only way to fix this is to find ways to like fix your hands so they do sweat and they do prevent and they do create skin cells you can't eat any of the food you have to drink water so you sweat and by doing this you make it so that other people can't biologically kill you by giving you disease because you have things in your body for which if you're sick other people will be sick as well so the only the only answer here is that you have to be able to be sociologically or biologically violent by your active living and so that's why it's important to spit it's why it's important to be able to shave and and cut your fingernails and drop them everywhere and it's important to be able to cut your hair it's so that if there's something wrong with you biologically it'll get everyone else sick so that they can they themselves can't make you sick and when they attempt to prevent you from doing that what they're telling you in essence is that they want to have you murdered so they're back to playing the shoe game there's a couple different games involved just walking down the street so this the shoe game is we're going to give you poisonous flip flops and then your feet are going to be f***** up and you walk around barefoot because the sidewalks are immaculate because we spent I don't know how much money doing that so you know a large amount of money is involved in this sort of gaslightingI'd become upset when they were dumping their drugs after giving them a weight everyone like on a Friday night they all do their drugs and then there'd be like needles and fentanyl all over the city so anyway they've spent I don't know how much money cleaning up the streets by like power washing it and sweeping it and then my feet are f***** up because of the sandals and so I walk around barefoot and now there's a couple broken beer bottles and there's some broken glass and of course my glasses have been stolen and I have back problems because I was poisoned in the shelter and I have a calcium deficiency because I'm going hungrythe other game that's kind of f***** up is that there's a Mark Twain book which is which is a his I don't know his his letters right and it has on the cover this is the penguin edition it has on the cover Mark Twain with a big head riding a frog but wearing a hat and so you'll have these idiots and then he's riding a left and still have these idiots that will go around taking their hat off when they know like I don't know how to explain it it's Mark Twain except his head is twice the size of his body riding a frog and holding in one of his hands a hatand so what you'll have is you'll have these people who will do this s*** where the walk by you holding their hat in their hand and it's because it's like the cover of this f****** Mark Twain book and you're like why where's the correlation why would anyone do that it's like I don't know their schizophrenic you know I just managed to find that book and then saw how people were acting on the street and put two and two together they'll also do this s*** we're like it'll be an empty sidewalk and you'll walk past two people and they'll go on either side of youand it's one of these things where it's it's like a it's a b******* test where people who are codependent and sick will try and make you Skittle effectively like recognize their like their their existence and then they'll either punish you or reward you if you are manipulable right so it'll be an empty sidewalk and the sidewalks here are like 15 ft across and there will be two people who will go on either side of you repeatedly until you start swerving around other people and then it becomes like a like ait becomes a game where they like find that you're easily manipulable and then will drug you so that you hurt if you don't do the thing for which the reward happens and then depending upon how much personal agency you have that's how much drugging you get right so like if you steal s*** then you have personal agency but you've done something wrong and see you can't do that unless you manage to figure out a way to get away with it that no one else knows about and so it's a sort of like it's how cunning are youit's a test to see how much personal agency you have in a way where you can't get caught but you'll be repeatedly poisoned if you don't do something that shows personal agency but there's no way that you can do anything or exist in a society in which you can do the right thing just by default by like getting a job and participating in society he and the reason for this is is that most people here are sick or schizophrenic or or have decided that like collectively that's no longer a choice so in order to manage to find a way to prove that you have personal agency so you won't be drug repeatedly you have to do you have to do something wrong because all the things and all the ways to do the right thing involve people who are schizoaffective or like schizoaffectives have found like for example if you stop eating and then it's like suicide then that's similar to permutation City it's similarit's similar to fashion week it's similar to going hungry and burning man and so they'll just drug you or have you made sick to anyone else that they've drugged or made sick in that particular tree of like in that particular decision tree of violence and so like if you don't like being drugged every time you eat or have people screw with you where like if you eat the wrong type of food it will mean something stupid like if you eat whipped cream someone will be beaten things like this like if you just decide to stop eating food you can decide that you're going to die at which point you've effectively been murdered but there's no out for saying like this person hates us so much that they would rather not eat than participate in what is essentially a schizoaffective illness tree and by and again I keep saying the word tree just the way that I say like freedom testing or I say the word boat and I'm inventing these terms so like an illness tree means two things at the same time so one is that there's a decision matrix where it's an if then clause where no matter what you do it's already been predetermined that you're going to be sickened based on like an arbitrary like either karma or belief system and then you can switch between trees depending on which belief system you're going to be sick into and then the other part of the tree is the number of people and the kinds of people you have been sick into themselves just biologically and so the point here is is to make it so that someone's decisions and there and then what they do is is predetermined right so you make it so that you make it so that I believe they call them ghosts or like there's two interchangeable terms which I believe are operating here which are commonly accepted and I didn't invent when is a ghost for which for which as far as I know what that means it means that someone like if you hinted someone to do something they'll do it because they have to so that's one of them and then depending on how sick you are that's how close you are to being a ghost the other one is a joker or a clown and that's one of these things where like it's a it's a reaction to this where if someone tells you jump off a bridge for example then because your schizoaffective you might do that so instead you get a bunch of your friends together to play cardsor like play bridge and then halfway through you decide not to do it anymore and then that's like jumping off a bridge metaphorically and so therefore you get the metaphor verse literalism stuff so you know I don't I don't know what like I don't know what else there is in order to explain this most of this is like how people deal with being sick in such a way that they've lost personal agency and then the people the people who do this to each other usually find that it's done is as like a it's it's one of these things that's so awful that you can only do it to someone if you have a reason because it it it's it's something that happens it's something that people who are who are religious to right like in order to take away someone's personal agency that's a kind of murder and so you have to have a reason in many ways it's worse so usually what you do is you sick in someone so that they have like cancer you sick and someone said they're scared ofthey're scared of some disease or some collection of diseases and then you see if you can manipulate them into either being a ghost or a clown or finding some group of friends for which their codependent to and then that's similar to either that's similar either to like a dominant submissive mode or four friends that that form a circle in some way but are codependent much of the much of the drug use where you see boats where people will all do drugs together are people for whom I believe they have their sick in this waybut they're trying to form stable sickness groups like if you have four friends that all do drugs in the right way and one guy has this illness and one guy has that illness but they all managed to like they all managed to like offset their illnesses in a rock paper scissors type fashion either either mental illnesses or biological illnesses or some combination thereof then it's a stable group right and in that way you you can find some sort of like livable you can find some sort of like livable situation in which you're not going to like you're not going to s*** your immune system or you're not going to s*** your neurobiology the other thing is is so that's that's part of it one of the things is that in San Francisco if you if you make your social groups so most people if you look at a social graph can only know about 40 people total if they try really hard and that's all they do with their time but the other thing is is if you make your social graph too largetwo large in San Francisco then what happens is is that you end up hitting someone who is sick who will do drugs or will hide the fact that they're doing something that will make everyone else sick in your social graph and so I grew up in a society in which more or less everyone could could like talk to each other and interact as far as I knew and no one was doing anything that was so extreme that it would make it so that everyone would be sick at once but I know on the other hand you have San Francisco where it's likeif you know a guy who knows a guy and that guy secretly does fentanyl or methamphetamine and no one in your group knows about it and many of these people are wealthy right cuz like wealthy people do drugs so then then they could be so sick that it it can the contagion causes your social graft to be coming as well and so it becomes incredibly complicated in order to prevent illness and everyone has all of these strategies in order to do this that involve like crossing your legs and grunting at each other and wearing stupid clothes andsecret handshakes to know which food is poisonous and which isn't and all of this stupid s*** so that you can rather than rather than it's it's almost upside down right so like which is a popular conceit in like evil religious like religion but evil right so what it is is you have rather than have a secret handshake or some secret in order to find the drugs or the thing that's bad right in order to know where the hangout is in order to find the drugs in order to know like in a stupid high School sense where all the cool kids go to do drugs and then if you're into that you have to go find where that islike you have to go out of your way to care right rather than that what ends up happening is that everything is sick and everything is polluted and if you want to if you want to not be sick you have to spend all of your time and energy going out of your way not to be sick and then once you do that everyone that is sick sees you as a Target because they see that your body is clean and they can use you as a hub for well if I cough on this guy and then someone else coughs on that guy then maybe we can use him to f****** his neurobiologywell at the same time getting getting like things for ourselves right like if he eats clean food in his healthy and you know I can have my friends cough on him and breathe what he breathes and roll around in his sheets and all that and then I'll be slightly healthier and he'll be worse off and I can still do the drugs and then this becomes even worse when you realize that it's not even just still do the drugs but still have friends who have friends that do the drugs that are sick that are the problemand when I talk about drugs I'm not talking about like pot and mushrooms and alcohol and I'm talking about like like there are people who are so sick that if they touch the if they touch the button for the water fountain and drink water and you touch the button after them you'll be high for several hours because they've done so much they've done so much fentanyl and so much methamphetamine that their entire body is physically contagious and and many of these people will like I've seen this happen a couple times is it when someone is that sick people will just give them things so that they go away so so you'll see people who are like so incredibly ill that anything they touch will make everyone else sick like eating gourmet food and and wearing like expensive clothes sometimes or typically it's food it's either food or it's or like free things sometimes clothing because again like if you're poor in that sick like the things that you can get her food and clothing like they're not going to give you like a car cuz you can't drive one and it's not like giving someone an apartment is going to workI've seen this happen quite a few times is that among the wealthy this also happens and sometimes people will give someone a car and I believe this is where the vanity license plates come in they'll give someone a car but give it a stupid name and then the person will drive it around but they're so sick that they no longer know how to drive and so there's been quite a few car crashes from people who are alike who essentially like lost the ability to drive because they're they're too sick but people have given them free things because they are sick and they can use their sickness as a weaponand so that's you know I don't know like what do you do like you can't you can't arrest people statistical sample to like statistical sample testing and genetic testing from the population and setting up and like going around HIPAA like just having someone say yeah okay I want to know what it is and then taking statistical samples from the population and attempting to isolate the cause and the vectors is what you have to do and you're going to have to have volunteers so it won't be it won't be like a pure samplebecause the people who are healthy are more likely to volunteer in the people who are sick are more likely not to but I don't know how else you find out what the cause is I mean if you look if you look at like how plagues have stopped in the past what they did is they took samples and then they said oh cholera is coming from this well no one drink out of that and then they fix the well so the only way to do this to find out where the outbreak sources are is to have is to have people like come in and give statistical samples of how they're sickand then you have to and then you have to publicize it so it's not like a secret society or anything like you can't just be like if you have the secret handshake we'll take a statistical sample of you from like the population no you have to set up like a come in and do a blood test to see if you're sick and then collect data I think the worst part about this is all of the secrecy because it means that there's no way to figure out like if someone is unpopular enough they won't know what the secret is that not being made sickand to have some guy work at McDonald's or have some guy like work at a donut shop they have to be a member of whatever secret society decide who gets to do that and it's just like a sponkers there's this completely nuts it adds this entire layer of complication to society so there's like no way to there's no way to like there's no way like the guy who ends up getting a job enough to support themselves and pay for an apartment has done so because they've managed to find like a they've managed to figure out how to how to likelike the secret to not being made sick or a group of people that were all sick in each other and just the right way so like all of the cops that are running the San Francisco library are more or less sick to each other just as an example and like most businesses that are like are most organizations that have some sort of collection of more than like I don't know 20 people all have some sort of secret in how they sicken each other or are sick to each other which is absolutely f****** bonkers again this is one of these things it's just there's likeyour qualifications for being able to run a library shouldn't be I know how to make people sick anyway it's incredibly frustrating cuz I'm just writing down and saying all the things for which should have happened 5 years ago but never did where it's like there's a plague well what do you do why do you take statistical samples of the population and you find out where it's coming from and then you see if you can inoculate or make those people like not sick but rather than like all it would take would be a storefront that drew blood told you if you were sick or not and then offered free medication depending on the illness which would probably be like some sort of vaccineand doing that would cost I don't know like say it costs an outrageous amount of money compare that to the like not only compare it to the amount of human suffering you could have avoided but compare it to the amount of property loss and like empty buildings everywhere and so seeing as this is so obvious the only thing I can think of is that people either want everyone to be sick or that the people who are like making the decisions are themselves sick and want to and in are forming we're essentially plague and illness networksand so because they have because they've managed to use sickness to get to get power they don't want the sickness to go away the other thing is is someone who want me to just want a corner the property market instead of like let's let all these sickity it's kill each other and then when they're all dead we'll come in and buy everything for cheap and so it's probably a combination of the two I mean I don't know I don't like I don't know why anyone would want to live this way it doesn't make any sense to mein many respects people's livelihoods or their lives may depend on it like if you have some like terminal illness and the only way to prevent people from making you more sick is to form an illness Network that's what you're going to do but at some level it's like you have to fix that because otherwise everyone's going to be miserable for the rest of their lives so it'll be fixed eventually it's just a matter of how long it's going to take everyone to decide that they're tired of this stupid ss*** anyway I mean I'm just walking to a place where I know that there's food that's in containers and I'm being stalked again so again it's one of these things were like someone will cough on me I'll go to where there's food where I know that I can eat food and then a bunch of people will cough on the guy that coughed on me and then after I've eaten the food on the way back I'll be drugged with something and on the way there people where it will wear stupid clothing and on the way back people will wear stupid clothingand it's either be sick into death or it's going to be like I get to starve or I could eat the food in the shelter which has which has antipsychotics in it and that I don't trust and so it's a matter of like I just passed a group of people and breathing in the same air that they did made my head hurt and so I'm like I don't even know what's wrong with them but I know that there's something like like significantly like I had it like a piercing pain in my head just by by breathing in what they breathe in and and I don't know what that is but it's some sort of sick and so they'll take a bunch of people they'll have they'll have them go to the the location that I wasn't at have them sick in everyone and then I'll like and the solution to this is that I go somewhere and I either get drunk or high and that proves that I'm either not a Muslim or it breaks the chain of people that are going to like oh see this is wonderful they also like to put graffiti on the on the on the way to a location I'm going to indicatehow I'm going to be sickened or how I'm being manipulated so like I just passed graffiti that's a tubby with like x's on it again like I went and I ate food at a location for which people who go there are are like eating themselves to death because they have dopamine withdrawal and then while I was eating the food like some woman who was 500 lb comes running out of a gym or something upset so this is like and it was in it and most likely I had been gassed or drugged or something to someone who would drug them and then whenever I would do something they would get a reward and they're eating themselves to deathand whenever they did something I would be punished and it's just mixing up the like the sickness Network in such a way to sicken someone to death by using people as human weapons but instead in this case of it being a child with a disease or an old person that has a disease it's someone that's that's so dopamine withdrawal that they're that they're essentially eating themselves to death and so it becomes like a morality test of like are you going to do the right thing or the wrong thing and if you do the wrong thingso again like I was in the shelter system and I would eat at different shelter pet food pantries which ended up getting me poisoned but the shelter food pantries themselves what they like to do is they like to have their own collection of people they make sick so no one else can make the same person sick to the same thing the reason here is one because it allows them to form illness networks and two if they're going to experiment on the poor they need it they need to be able to like give someone a sickness and then give them the antidote and see if it worksand if someone eats around that doesn't that that doesn't make it just doesn't work that way so seeing as I don't do drugs or have sex it means that the thing for which I have a flaw must therefore be gluttony right so they're many of these people are sick and they're and they're like mentally ill and so they believe that if you're perfect you have to be a priest and if you're not then you have to have some flaw for which that's the thing that makes you a human being as opposed to everyone is flawed in their own unique special way becausepeople are flawed by definition so this ends up being like oh he ate it different food shelters we're going to take a 500 lb black woman and sick in him repeatedly to her and then give her money which is a gang thing using sickness and again there's no like like people who are that sick and are getting money and being rewarded for being for being used by gangs won't want to be part of the statistical sample testing which would get rid of plague right because their benefiting from this they don't want thaton the other hand if someone is sick in their head hurts and they and they would submit and they would they would say like I want to I want to be tested to see what's wrong with me and I'll be part of the statistical sample then you could then you could be able to find those people who are essentially spreading disease in order to gain money or power or whatever and so to some extent statistically sampling the population would be a good thing it would be even if it was voluntary you would be able to find people who were who were spreading sickness intentionalor at least or at least in order to get money and power and so like that because I mean they would it would mean like oh everyone that has anything to do with this this statistical sample of things is sick and oh there's oh that's where the sick person is spreading it and they're the person that's causing all the the harm so so I mean I don't and all this would take is there so many abandoned buildings at this point all it would take is like one storefront that took blood and then tested it and I know thatI know that you can give blood to the Red Cross and there's people who've given blood so often that they become like a like that's what that's the thing they do and then the Red Cross has to test it right I mean I think at this point it has to be more overt than that and it has to be part of like how how illness works going forward is that you just have a you just have something where you can just test for sick because like if I'm sick and I hurt my first reaction isn't I mean maybe it's a marketing problem but my first reaction isn't like I'm going to donate blood my first reaction is to go to the policebecause I don't have any experience with this it's just it's outside of my understanding so any other question is is does the Red Cross specifically test for for pathogens and blood and then tell you what you may or may not have an offer of vaccine like I don't I don't think so I don't think that's the way it works but you can give blood and then if you're sick like the government will be able to take statistics on it but to what extent is that like to what extent is that published and to what extent does everybody know about itso like I don't and again the other thing is is that my phone is bugged and when I talk into it and I have all these people going around with headphones I don't know the extent to which they're like they're liable to influence from what they hear which I find incredibly disturbing and if you're listening to this and listening to what I have to say and then having that affect your decision making in a way that feels coerced or that you don't have the ability to make your own decisions then you need like psychiatric help I can't I can't do anything about thatwhat I'm doing is I'm recording all the problems so that if somebody is capable of making decisions and having authority and being independent they can say oh these are these are the things that a witnesses saying wrong in this in the city these are the things we can fix but if you're so sick that you're either a ghost or a clown or you have to you feel manipulated by like the people around you then you have a biological illness which I don't know how to fix*** ee