September 13, 2025

God damnit. So I had to go get scabies cream because the idiots in the shelter gave me sick again. So I go to a hospital and this idiot doctor that floats between the hospitals gave me something I have to pay for rather than the prescription. Scabies can kill people. I don't have a job. I want a job. I hurt all the time from being poisoned by jackasses. This is over at the 45 Castro Sutter Health. So I go to the one at Caesar Chavez and get scabies cream. And there are idiots there from I don't know. England. And I'm followed by a bat shirt on an idiot. White on black. Great. So today after I go and volunteer at De Haro street (and also so I can get groceries) they poison the coffee with what I presume to be the "finger of god" stupid shit because my head hurts and then I'm followed around by idiots doing finger guns. And last night I passed by this liquour store called "that's it" with a black and white hand finger. Then it becomes "which stores 'locally' sponsor you based on "colors""? Like the movie Colors (why...). No I don't need to have idiots sponsor me. And yes it *would* be a good idea if there were drugs that weren't inhalable so they didn't make me sick AND the food wasn't poisoned just to do it. I would like to not have some novel chemical put in my coffee cup in a church when I'm attempting to volunteer for the poor and get some food. And my tooth was chipped and they put a piece of bread on the ground like "the upper crust" and "literally not having a crown". I'm not suicidal. I would like gangsters that know what they are doing buy and sell drugs in such a way so that it didn't make me sick including walking through meth or having the food given away poisonous. You'd think it wouldn't be so hard. Also a stranger in a strange land reference with cop cars making an "L" while one of them was an "old timey car" playing "very superstitious" last night. Also "Bohemian Rhapsody" and "Kum & Go". No, I don't want to die. I'm not getting anything out of this. Seriously. But if I say nothing then what? And I'm still happy about the food because where else can I find food that's packaged? The whole thing is such a colossal waste of time. I mean I asked a couple of construction guys on the way back from the church still tripping mildly if they knew of anyone that could offer me a job and they're like no of course not while I'm followed around by idiots holding hands. Like make whatever companies you want but don't pretend that every sign that has something in black and white has something to do with me just because you'll repeatedly poison me to your crazy. If I'm followed around by morons doing drugs around me so I feel drunk whenever someone buys a beer from the "That's It" liquour store I'm still going to be pissed and report it.

Oh and here's another thing that's incredibly sad and fucked up but I think it's probably true. There is this book called "Welcome to the World" where a black woman with incredibly big lips is sucking on the lips of a white baby. Ok...look. I know this sounds stupid, but I'm seeing groups of people from various ethnic groups that have inflamed lips where this appears to be a thing which could be contagious like fucked up hands or broken feet. So if someone plays a song like bohemian rhapsody and goes around you whistling around you after you've had your coffee poisoned and later you see a bunch of people with inflamed lips what are the odds that someone is going to see if they can't fuck up your lips in a shelter so it's harder for you to talk - similar to fucking up other parts of your body like your back, head, hands, legs, feet, and so on. Or eyes. It's just so fucking stupid.

So it could be a "test" to see how racist I am or I could wake up tomorrow with enormous lips and a medical condition I don't know how to fix. My coffee was just poisoned in a church, what do you want? Some enormous black woman followed me into an ER, a Mexican stared at me and then I found this book in a "little library" next to a Volks Wagon microbus with a Star Wars windshield screen. This was like a day after I was writing about the song "The World is a Vampire" by The Smashing Pumpkins. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Bitches be crazy, please don't poison me so I have fucked up medical conditions based on how you hate each other. "You Put The Lime in the Coconut and You drink it All Up" - If the coco nut is a wall nut and then you cut it in half you have the wall and a nut which is like "The Wall" and "Darkside of the Moon".

Some jackass stole the medical records that I posted on github. Cool. You hacked github. Awesome. And they managed to erase the version control and history that I uploaded them. Obnoxious. It's not like I can't just go and get them again and then make them public.

Finally, on the idiot front. ONO is "two 'perfects' around an 'alice'" (the N is going down and then you hit bottom and them you go up). OMG is a 'perfect' and a 'g - government' around someone who is down on both the left and the right and is just sort of miserable in the middle. LOL is a perfect surrounded by "'L's" - the 12th letter of the alphabet but 'losers' (as opposed to 'F's' which are the fifth letter). So dumb. It's short hand stupid using letters as numbers as a "hanged man's" version of code sharing. I hate it. So an "Alice" that is sick will start sickening people and then someone will go around you and say "oh no!" and then all of a sudden an incredibly short and incredibly tall person will come in to get sick to the girl to weird her out about the left hand path so she goes up on the right. That was yesterday at the hospital where I couldn't get scabies cream. I take it a "L" is hitting bottom and then just staying there as opposed to a V which is "peace" which is "dead cat bounce" (in the parlance of our times - so to speak). It's dumb stupid shit, but that's why I'm being surrounded by idiots that are saying "oh no" or "like such and such or like such and such thing over there". It's a way of surrounding someone with bullshit by fucking with the way that you talk around them so that they're in a bubble of stupid and don't know what's going on. I fucking hate that shit with a passion. So now you know.

I would like to work on problems that aren't bullshit now please. I swear I'm psychic and the guy on the other end of the phone is an idiot. Now you're on speaker phone you tool. K thx bye.

I came up with a list of problems that I think it would be useful to work on last night which I want to walk through with bing and see if I can make some progress on. I want to spend some time on each of them so I don't know how much progress I'm going to make. I figure if I spend a couple hours on each problem I may come up with something that may be useful motivation for some real world work.

Anyway, all of that shit is on the agenda for the next couple days, but I want to go a bit slower and work on each problem one at a time to see if I can make it as good as possible and spend the rest of the time reading and researching some other shit. So I'll do one of those problems a day for the next several days and then come up with a potential action plan on how the research could be carried out and how to proceed with a budget headcount and so forth. No I am not my idiot of a cousin. No I am not Darth Vader, Super Man, or the international man of mystery. It's what I can think of to do that would be useful seeing as no one will hire me for a job and I keep having to report how I'm being fucked with by everyone.

You are now aware that I am homeless and this website is free and Mark Zuckerberg spent 68 billion dollars making this. I don't know if I was supposed to make fun of every person in the world who is a billionaire one at a time, but so far I believe I've covered at least a couple of them. Elon Musk has a dumpster monster truck, Astro Teller has a piss balloon, and now the Zuck over here has made a shitty version of the Sims. But shittier. It would be nice if I had a place to sleep where I felt safe, I wasn't stalked and my food wasn't poisoned and I wasn't in enormous pain. Oh - and is the reason that there are "No Logos" on any of the businesses anywhere (it's the coffee shop labeled "this is a coffee shop" or the bar labeled "this is the local bar" - what the fuck? Not "John's Super Cool Coffee Shop" or "Sports Are Fucking Awesome (the bar)" it's "This is where you shop for groceries" the grocery store. Huh?) because Naomi Klein is insane and has somehow taken control of shit? I have no fucking idea what people are thinking right now.