Here is what my hands look like. I'm uploading the rest of the files of my medical records to github. This stupid shit where someone will drug me and run around and see if they can't get free shit is obnoxious and I hate it. So oh look I have all my fingers - so drugging me to an idiot that's missing a finger and then going around with grateful dead shirts with hands that have missing fingers is stupid. I'm doing this to all of my records which includes going to a hospital three times a week for over a year. So you'll know "exactly" who I am. Ugh. It's like Star Wars and the lightening thing or like XCOM (ugh - you have to use a "dicom" viewer to view the files) - and the original 1994 XCOM game had the original base in the shape of a Y. Righty o. So in any case, I'm doing it anyway. Also, in the movie Hackers (again with this stupid fucking movie) - in the first half of the movie they're always "moving" places and in the second half they're always singing. And the handles of the characters are opposite of what they are. So Acid Burns is "Clearance Clearwater Revival", Serial Killer is "Alice in Chains", Lord Nikon is "Radio Head", and Zero Cool is "Smashing Pumpkins" and Crash Overide is "Jefferson Airplane". And yes I am in fact aware. All of this would be the trump card the hanged man - meaning that all the other cards are from other obfuscations of media and so on. It could be any other incredibly complicated tree.
This is a joking way of suggesting that the death card refers to people who are no longer capable of lying (about anything) - as it's 9 of 10 commandments and so on. The sky is purple and made of cheese. Also talking about some incredibly obscure programming type signatures that affect an incredibly small part of the population.
so the computer lab in the University that I'm writing all my stuff out in is having the servers go down which is supposedly funny as a joke and it's just more b******* it's like a joke about a sunk cost fallacy because someone whispered that s*** in my ear and you know the bus or walking down the street yesterday and then the six plays of plautus like is probably a joke about a sunk cost fallacy because the plays are f***** up like all the translation is wrong and the one time they talk about something that's not dollars they talk about yen and then it's like three or four and it's by anchor Doubledayand it's like okay I get it it's the book that we're going to have you find if you care about like propriety or whatever and you want to read about something interesting while you're surrounded by jackasses that are going around making you feel depressed because they're just talking and slang all the time surrounding you with b*******and it's like you know I don't I don't want it like I've made on average in my entire life like below medium wage like I've made like below what most people make like I've been lower middle class and then you have to likejustify how much money you make around people who are treating you like s*** and then are into like classism and s*** and it's just I mean it's just so f****** exhausting how evil the people here are and again it's like they'll throw a f****** like scratch off lottery ticket on the ground based on like the way they're f****** with you if you find out how it is so like if you don't figure out the game of how they're f****** with you they'll tear it in half but if you figure it out the crossword game they'll throw the crossword scratch off ticket on the ground for you to findand then like Duracell is like a Duracell battery on a ground is like yeah it's a cell and then you have the six plays of cloudus the rope is these people who are stranded or something and it's like okay cool you know I just all right it's just obnoxious anyway I can't I can't necessarily save what I was working on so p I'm just writing all this s*** out because again it's supposedly funny and I don't you know the mage I mean I had another paragraph where I was just essentially complaining about how screwed up everyone was andso that's one paragraph that's probably not worthwhile rewriting the other paragraph was I was working at dehero on Saturday which is a church on tejero Street that's spelled d e h a r o and they talked about standing on sacred ground with this d****** who took his shoe off and like quoted Moses and s*** and then they spiked the coffee with fentanyl so here I am looking 50 lb bags for the of potatoes for the poor for five f****** hours while I've taken coffee that f**** up my back and I know there's something wrong with it and I only realize that my back has been f***** up with fentanyl after I walk down the tenderloin the next day and all these people have are likebut Benton half in my back is f***** up and like black guys are looking at me and wiping their eyes so it's just like you know you can't even serve food to the f****** poor or they're going to poison the coffee while you do it it's like okay I'm also going blind like my my eyesight is going I just I think everyone here is is like mentally ill like seriously psychotically mentally ill you can't serve food to people in a church without them poisoning you based on drugs that other people do because their irresponsible f*** upsand then they're going to quote s*** to you about Moses the morons and they're evil and there's nothing like there is no like I okay I was supposed to as part of the agreement with the cap housing authority serve food to the homeless three times I did it twice because after two times of serving food to the homeless and being gassed with fentanyl I decided not to do that anymore they would HotBox the glide basement with fentanyl as I was serving them food because they're evil f*** ups and they're just pieces of s***I then serve food at Darrow Street and they drug the coffee and on the way back from serving the food and giving the food away to all of the homeless that are in the shelter I'm staying at I had an idiot go around with a necklace with two keys on it painted like the Virgin Mary and then glasses that are like he's just essentially dressed up to be like what my it is supposed to be like a stupid communist hat big black frame glasses and then like two keys around his neck with the Virgin Mary on itand it's like okay so it took me three f****** years to find out this particular secret of if I do the right thing then I won't be poisoned but you poisoned me so many times that my that my inclination is to go anytime I do anything at all to help anyone here it's wrong because they're psychotic and so I figured out the secret we're like three is the version of Islam where you say oh that's divorce and so I only had to be poisoned psychotically three times with fentanyl and then maybe people who were crazy nut jobs won't do it anymorebut if I don't get poisoned in the right way over a period of years I'm going to have to wait until someone is psychotic to wait for me to volunteer again so I can be poisoned with f****** fentanyl again bear in mind I've never taken fentanyl I have no interest in taking fentanyl because it's a horrifying drug which is bad for you and can do things like f****** your back not to mention your head not to mention all the parts of your body and so these are rules to a game that are made by psychoticsthey're not rules that make sense they're not rules that are useful in any way whatsoever they're people who don't believe in rules because rules therefore are wrong because any rules whatsoever have to be arbitrary and yes I understand girls incompleteness theorem and axiomatic philosophy proves that at some point you have to assume things personally if someone is going to poison me and mislead me in such a way that it's going to make me ill I'm assuming that the assumptions you are making is if someone put this in front of 12 of your peers would you think it's a good idea or not because that's what sends you to f****** jailso it's complete b******* it's just a way to f*** with someone it's bad faith it's people who've decided that all rules are bad and therefore we can poison someone because we've arbitrarily decided that we don't like what you believe in and so we're going to take what you believe in or some absolute worst case interpretation of what you believe in or some perverted sense of we don't like rules and we're going to poison you to them edit some level it's so f****** like I can see where they're coming fromif I assume that I were a crazy person this person doesn't like rules therefore we can poison him see because that doesn't involve rules and our rules which come from the Bible are correct see doesn't that make sense and it's this s*** for everything in San Francisco where if you're not part of a gang they will find anything you believe in and transform it into something that can be used to hurt you they don't believe in freedom of speech they don't believe in freedom of religion they don't believe in freedom of philosophy or belief in any way at allthey're sick they're mentally ill they're broken inside and they will hurt you and this because I didn't want to volunteer after I was poisoned in any case I'm going to upload all of my medical records so that no one can go around and say they're me in order to get free s*** and yes I know it's like f****** Star wars or some f****** thing and it may not work and it's probably just a massive f*** you to everyone who's made me sick but I'm going to do it anywaythe next stupid s*** that I'm supposed to believe in is like how many cents someone gives me over stripe or like for what I've made personally is like how long I'm going to live or how much sense I have specifically and then I'll be poison to it based on how much change I have because someone else who's busting on a street corner because they're an artist is so much better at doing art than I am having gone to school for four f****** years and done everything in my power in order to contribute to society that didn't involve art but see they're more talented than I am and so therefore I'll be poison to stupid s***because if someone can like play stairway to heaven on a guitar and I'm selling food on the street corner then I should be poisoned and that guy should get $5 and you know what I can tell it's being done in a coordinated fashion just to f*** with me because I've been f***** with by groups of people in a coordinated fashion for I don't know how long and it's just schizophrenics being s***** and I'm so f****** tired of itI'm being f***** with to arbitrary rules by people who believe that what you can do is poison people and they can do it in groups in large groups and what that means is there's no point in doing anything at all for any reason because everyone around me is psychotic I mean once someone has decided that like you can be poisoned until you help the poor enough then there then they're an evil then they're an evil poisonous person and if there's groups of them then it means that out like getting a job would just involve like me helping people who want to kill other peopleI don't trust anyone around me because I was just at a church in poisoned when I gave food away to the poor and then I gave that food away to the people at the shelter I'm saying that at 1050 van ness and then I was poisoned again probably in my sleep so I'm not going to do anything other than what I'm doing and then wait to die because there's no point I'm not going to steal my way out of the city because then that'll be used as an excuse to have me onto down and kill if I'm going to be poisoned I'll just record it until all the people responsible end up getting f***** over I'm tired of it and I have no ability to change anything because everyone around me is a monster and like I go to get my medical records and depending on what I do the medical record guy will say I have a great day or have a good day and that'll depend on how I'm going to be f***** with and poisoned and I just I'm so f***tired of it there's nothing I can do and you know I just sit around and read a book and then wait for the you know wait for it for it to end or for me to die there's no like like the six plays of loudness it has 75 cents written in the corner of the book and the book is a joke about stupid s*** because it's clearly a bad translation where the translation is used to screw with people and someone gives me a dollar for which taxes mean that I get 66 so is it going to be like I'm going to get a certain amount of sense and that's how many years I have left before I dieright like if somebody gives me a $1.25 is someone going to give me like the cure for cancer I just I don't trust anyone to do damn near anything at all for any reason because they're so f****** s****and I just like is someone going to take all of my posts and say like oh this is the next year of his life we're going to f*** with him too is the way that he wrote on the internet on a block there's a woman who is reading the brothers karamazov in the shelter and people are like wearing masks like are mimicking wearing masks around me so it's like yes I understand King Lear and the brothers karamazov are similar am I going to have like someone poison me to whatever this stupid b**** is doing until like I wander around wearing a mask on my wrist in order and then drop it on a sidewalk or somethinglike I don't want to play this stupid f****** game if you want to kill me kill me if not just like u***** it so like if like if you want me to do anything useful at all like I'm f*** it so I can but otherwise like why why should I give a f*** about anyone okay so let's go through this in hackers there's love sex secret in God and in what's her face Taylor Swift there's magic madness heaven and sin and there's this joke about my dad talking about this Rabbi that crashes in an airplane where it's testicle spectacles wallet watch so so what that would be a 4x3 combination between 4th and 3 3 sets of four things so it's an obfuscation matrix so anytime if someone does one then of the other two sets you can pick one of the two and from there if they do the other from those those sets you can pick one of the other two and then you flip themso it's the most simple it's the most simple obfuscation matrix possible and then if you go back to this douchebag he was telling me that the only three things that existed were security vitality and anxiety then that would mean that of the three sets of four things when would be the secure set one would be the vital set one would be the anxious said so anxiety would probably be Taylor Swift vitality would probably be testicle spectacles cuz it's funny and then security would have to be the hacker set of course because it's talking about securityand hackers the movie came out it was written by the cousin of this guy who were used to work for the CIA or something so it's a joke in a 4x3 matrix where you flip between the three things in a circle so if I grab my testicles then that's vitality and then the other three one of the other ones that I have to pick is love sex secret and God or magic madness heaven and sin and so of the of the other sets I picked secret cuz I told what the secret was but presented with a bunch of choices I could have picked one of the other ones for whichif if people go around me doing stupid s*** I could go I could have followed someone and see if I could have made magic happen by grabbing my nuts or something but I'm still stuck in a b******* circle but you see how this works right like if you grab your nuts and then people go around you and and it acts stupid are you going to follow a girl down the street and then like see if that's cuz you're being followed and screwed with the entire time right anyway that's the secret it's a 3X3 matrix having to do with four different things now what's interesting is is that if the movies are lagging the songs and Taylor Swift song that had magic madness heaven and sin in it it's correlated with the 2019 movie The King then that means that essentially the songs are a preview for the coming attractions for the movie of the people who are complaining about whatever else happened etc so anything that happened between 2010 and 2019 versus anything that happens from 2019 when all the s*** went South to 2025 is then complaining about like right so like antihero could be the Taylor Swift song for whichshe's complaining about the last person that got away with whatever she was talking about and then all of the songs tend to be about someone complaining about a tree or a group of people who are doing something or other and their people complaining about groups or types of people and then if you look at 1979 and all the books that came out the dead zone came out from Stephen King and then there was a bunch of other s*** that was Goofy and weird and f***** up so at some point all of the trees might dieand then they start over with something else so there could be another 1979 events so the other thing is is that my I've complained about this before but the the cell phones the camera will like clearly take a picture of what you're doing so people will smoke in front of the camera on specifically so if I if I put my nose in my if I put my finger in my nose while I look at my phone it it changes the the comments on some sites on the fly and the other thing is that people will go around me instead of wearing white shirts they'll wear like white shirts but like with like a pot flags on itbecause instead of being white I'm being the next instead of a blank a blanks a blank space baby right it's going to be like you're writing the name and the name is you know whatever so you can affect the camera on your phone based on the AI in the phone and then or like how how the phones are clearly bugging there's something wrong with them right and you can affect the face recognition on your phone to do stupid s*** to your social media and maybe give you money if you make the right stupid facesI don't know but this will then affect the people who come around me and then like someone took a picture of me looking at my phone with my nose and my my finger in my nose and it's like okay that's cool so again this is like incredibly stupid and boring and I wish I had a job and wasn't in pain and I don't know how to do that because everyone around me is a crazy a******oh and then all the dogs on the side of waymo cars are looking at their phones and all the cats are reading books so if you get a free phone off the street in San Francisco and then you do something stupid in front of it then you might get moneyyou should only go get free phones and then see if you and your friends can rip somebody off okay take this as an example of stupidity see you the eight great tragedies and mentor book as of 1957 and you have the six plays of plautus which is a book written in 1963 and so if you have three different ways of having a set of four jokes based on one word jokes so testicle spectacles wallet watch okay well in King Lear there is a joke about spectacles all right so you have three things for which there's four words and each of those four words could be a book a movie or a song I'm assuming that those are the forms of media we're going forbecause the one thing they aren't is a play which would be a play on words so if you have two books which is like 2 hours this was done to someone else which was four books 4 hours or four plays and there's six plays that are comedies in eight plays that are tragedies that 14 plays of which there are 12 play on words which would mean the two plays are missing and then the two plays if you find the missing two plays the missing two players don't have the words testicles spectacles wallet watch love sexsecret God or magic madness heaven sin and then you take the two plays with the names that don't have those things in them and you put the words together from the titles because somebody who has to figure out the secret rather than have a friend who helps them out is a Titleist which is like getting hit in the head repeatedly while they read books to figure out how they're being fooled so in total the plays are Prometheus bound Oedipus the King hippolytus King Lear ghosts Miss Julie on bales strand desire under the elms which are of the eighth grade tragedies and the six comedies are amphitryon the pot of gold casina the menaechmus twins pseudolus and the rope and so the answer is going to be like something like Burma shave right because that's stupid and it's like the Christmas Carol and so what would be Burma shave if the answer was I didn't want to have to read all the books and the joke is old enough that it exists before artificial intelligence and so it's probably going to be on bales strand in the rope because one's a shave and one's a beach and to the answer ends up being kill yourself so that's obnoxious what is a joke about not having any friends one's a joke aboutbeing bad with girls and one's about a joke about being a money grubbing Jew and then the answer is you should kill yourself so that's a that's just that's incredibly annoying and that would be the King of hearts because it's a suicide King one of the fascinating things about this and oh by the way this is funny because its like a game of hang man (reference all the parker brothers games prior - and before that it was vudeo games - again the white knight talking backwards) is that each of the words themselves is an exit node (most likely based in apostle,) so if king lear is spectacles then someone that doesnt read would find out the "joke" based on say beer names or names having to do with monetary or busines terms but it would still be the same matrix with another messge (probably kill yourself or something equally obnoxious - get lost etc). So theyre twelve differentiations of how someone deals with being gaslit and then given a shitty subtectual message. meh. anout as interesting as being followed by sick teenagers with pokemon characters on their backpacks. an indian guy said something about its only four hours so it most likely means that four people in the shelter are making sure i dont get sick or die of shitting my neurochemistry and once thats done ill be sick. something like this.its supposed to make people choose sides by giving them subtext and rhen if they react to it sickening them and claiming victory. And my coffee was just poisoned in the shelter while i had my back turned by someone that snuck in. while everyone else knew and watched. figures. also there seemed to be some voye on whether i was cool enough to be told what was going on or not which i seemed to have lost at which point i was poisoned. lets see what else. john cena plus radiohead karma police plus a simple numerological ciper is "three fifty won and forty won". so its the cops wont help you and rhe money wont help you. so figure what that means . anyway. then the shelter staff member played "dancing with a stranger" which is typical after im poisoned or mislead. theres a half dozen songs or maybe a dozen songs that have been used to fuck with me after ive been poisoned or someone is gocing me informtsitin about what the last person that sickednd me is doing. its incredibly fucked up and creepy. loke youll have someone spit in your food ir poison you or do drugs around you and have a bunch of idiots plat dongs avout what their particular day is goig and then after they sicken someone else or tou to something else theyll play "dancing in the dark" or "we were just kids" or "im with someone new". ots gucked up in the extreme. how about playing black sabbath the wutang clan coal chamber or whatever the latest fucked yp shit is and rhen not having me poisoned to whatever happens to be the thing youre playing misic to? whoever poisoned my food looked like they had money and snuck in or were paid off by someone with cash. fucking sucks how awful people are. i mist have not talked enough to pass the "cool kids test" which involves saying something if you see someone poisone the food. nope they cant do it. they have to personally like you to prevent you from being sickened or worse. so rhey soend all of their time making sure everyone likes them rather than doing anything prodcutive or being by themselves. how exhausting that mist be. because theyre shit they have to waste their time being freinds with people they cant stand to be around out of fear. they handed us elastic beanies so you can wear them at night and no one will be able to put sick in your hair that will get into your scalp while you sleep. ive slept in doorms in columbia and bolivia and nepal and i dont know wheree else and it wasnt this fucking awful. adding this as a linking note https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seven_Types_of_Ambiguity - metafilter is quoting hackers under user autopilot. the only winning move is to do nothing and record everything around me until i stop being piisomed and then continually ask if people are tired of living in a shithole. e g e
