The dogfuckers at the shelter I'm staying at stole my research that I wrote down for my language. The only thing that people know how to do here in San Francisco is steal shit and hurt each other. Imagine who they would give it to. An idiot. And then when the idiots that get all the shit that they can steal that isn't nailed down can't do anything useful with it because they're only good at stealing then they won't know what to do. It's just so obnoxious. I'm now having people follow me into food kitchens and smack their lips when I eat a combination of foods that won't make me sick and not when I don't. Fuck them. I'll eat everything and if I die it's because everyone here is an obnoxious cunt. Oh - and the shelter mysteriously has new shit in the shelter. A fancy doorbell from somewhere expensive made of silicon valley vomit. This dicklick in the shelter the other night was doing this thing - again, a food thing (because it's insulting when someone likes food, books, movies, music *MORE THAN YOU* and so you'll see if you can't correlate that to poisoning them) where he'll eat chips, then all of a sudden my research is stolen and the fuckups at the shelter have a fancy doorbell and someone has made a stupid amount of money. They're evil shitbags. There's nothing here. I'm being followed around by little old spanish ladies that are exclaiming into their phones that their so surprised that I didn't steal anything after I go around town as if they're surprized. WHY? "Nada. Yo tengo nada commercial ..." etcetera and whichever. I hate everyone here so fucking much. But someone gave me a dollar. Which will then have people follow me around to see if I spend it immediately and then tell each other. It's fucking sick. They're all evil. There's no one here that isn't a complete cunt.
In other news I believe it's widely known at this point that I was stuck with a needle that included infected blood and I'm waiting for the results of a HIV/Aids test. Neat. So that's a thing. Yesterday at Sutter Health Van Ness Hospital hidden in a blood pressure cuff or hidden in my clothes. Also this - for people I mean monsters that can't distinguish fantasy from reality.
Found while looking up porn. Of course, I read this and go - AH - this is how crazy assholes have decided to datamine everything about my parents and then harass and torment me for years. While involving among other things young children who would mimic jokes my father would tell me. This week there was a five year old girl with her mother mimicing a joke about how I had something stolen and brushed it off. So I'm being watched and harassed by people who abuse the poor and involve their children in sickening someone.
Because they're shit. When I see a homeless poor person my first reaction isn't "I'm going to involve the mob in using my five year old daughter to abuse them" but apparently people here do. They're all dogshit. They like being called dogshit because it means they get attention. It's unfucking believable how completely shit they all are.
So it's crazy evil bullshit where I'll be sickened and tortured by crazy people while I have no money or access to work according to people datamining my parents life. Since 2023 I believe. And as far as I can tell more or less everyone in the entire city has been in on it because they're pure evil and no one would say anything because their sick. There's you can do to fix that no matter how much you want to or how hard you try. Because they're just evil assholes. There's nothing that fixes that somehow. I don't know why. They just are.
It's an extralegal way to torture someone without sending them to prison and everyone here thinks its wonderful. It would explain more or less how I'm being fucked with by everyone. It's an entire city of crazy shitty people that are awful. I was working on a programming language and now because my research was stolen that I was making in what I can only assume to be a joke I'll now be kicked out of the shelter (while every other place wants to have me killed) because I screamed at the door guy to give me back my research. But hey - I now have HIV. And I've been vomitting up blood in the last week and have had four X-rays, been on antibiotics, HIV medication and had about a pint of blood drawn. So that's cool. I don't know how prison could be much worse. So you'll just torture someone that has a reputable reputation until they commit a crime and then you can smear it all over the papers that they're a bad person. Everyone here is human garbage.
Of course since everyone here is a sick dogfucker no one will admit that they did you wrong and fix it. They want you to pretend everything is normal and then they'll stop hurting you while you're surrounded by crazy assholes that pretend to be your friend after fucking you over for 3 years and lying to you. You're all shit. I particularly like the "nanoweb" that makes it so that you have a mind of a preteen and then having constant headaches and short term memory problems for 3 fucking years. That was a beautiful touch. Course I'm to blame for all of the problems in the city after coming here and having multiple attempts on my life which required me to go to the police. That means that I'm a snitch. I have no fucking clue how everyone got this messed up and I just don't care. I wish were anywhere else and not in pain. You couldn't have a priest or police officer or doctor or academic pull me aside and tell me that I'm being fucked with? Or anyone? How are you this fucking awful?
And I'll be "DOS" (denial of service or DOS - like the command prompt - because they absolutely hate anything to do with technology because they can't use it without hurting each other) because I yelled at someone after they stole my research and bought a doorbell that has the output hooked up to tiktok (according to crazy asshole that most likely stole my work who has a hair fetish apparently and is incredibly upset if I mention that he has hair. I don't know fucking know why. It's anyone's guess how you can fuck someone up by taking something from a hair fetish website and using it to torture someone). You get to stay in the shelter until you find the joke about how you're being fucked over and then they kick you out after drugging you and stealing as much shit as they can. Don't have possessions. Don't write anything. Don't work on something to improve the world.
It'll just be stolen while they sicken you.
And the best part is that everyone that has lied to and hurt me will not expect me to treat them with respect and beg from the same people that lied to and fucked me over. Unless I run away and then I'll most likely be hunted down and killed. Because they're cunts. And because it's so fucking awful to be poor everyone that has a child that has any expectation of being able to make a living or exist in society has 1) implicated their child in torture through molesting and fucking with the homeless and 2) now gets to live in a world where if you're poor everyone will attempt to have you sickened and killed.
I wanted to get a job selling coffee and a small apartment or build houses for the poor while I worked on writing a book or website. Fuck that I guess. I spent three years calling everyone around me an asshole and then being continually fucked with. No actually for really but for sure how are you hows it going ... bullshit bullshit bullshit. Let's say something a certain amount of times to make it true. Everyone here is so fucking awful. And no, I can't bootstrap your brainstem from nothing after you've done nothing but smoke meth and crack for years. You can't believe in me to save you from heroine. It doesn't fucking work that way. But I can't tell anyone to do anything because that would make me Jesus or "perfect". I have no idea how people are this hopelessly incompetent. While I have headaches that never ever go away at all.
And you're going to have some imcompetent warlock come in whose only qualification for being able to be here is that he can hurt people and you're going to get what you paid for. Misery for years. Only knowing what you can steal or who you can trick into giving you shit rather than fleeing. Just fucking dogshit. All of this was - most likely - organized so I could find out about it on the fifth of November because it's like a stupid movie. About England. I don't care. I just want to not live in a circle of bullshit anymore with people drugging and torturing me. You're just all so good at hurting people you don't know how to do anything else.
All of which sounds stupid and crazy which is why it's done this way by people that are fucking with you in a circle. You can't know or do the right thing by default so you spend your lives finding complicated ways to prevent anyone else from having what you don't by using sick and stealing shit. It's just the worst fucking place on the planet.
Additionally someone wrote the word "CRATES" on the sidewalk with a blowtorch and if you ask what a monad is (from Haskell) then bing copilot will give you an answer that has crates as the analogy. So if you know all the questions that someone will ask ahead of time there is no functional difference between "AI" and having a large hard drive. IE the Chinese room paradox. Cool. So much for that. And no, not all AI is this way - only that if you ask the question then it will come up with an answer - what if everyone's answers to the same question are the same answer? Would that save on compute? So how do I know that Microsoft's bing is doing the AI for me or is just a joke and using compute it used for someone else and then storing the previous answer? If I ask the same question of phind.me it comes up with the answer "42". 2 years ago in a shelter there was someone mentioning 35 or 42 and that's been a numerological "theme" that most likely comes from a fucking yoga place on Valencia. Or something. I don't know. It's stupid and awful. It's more fucking with me I think. Someone has given the log values of AI to their children or some fucking thing maybe in order to play "ender's game". Just so fucking shit. Everyone here is an asshole. Also - hackernews is broken and showing old information that was outdated as of 3 years ago. So that's nice. I know this because of overhearing other people's conversations and remembering them.
Since my papers were stolen I'm putting this up in case anyone wants to have "make love not war". That's the joke - they steal your shit so that in defense you give it away so no rich asshole can make money off of it because it's the rich and the poor attempting to destroy someone's life by playing monkey in the middle. It's a pun or joke on "see no evil hear no evil" which is why everyone is going deaf, blind, or won't speak. So do you want this thing that you're too stupid and evil to use? If I don't sleep outside tonight I'll consider it. But that's what it is. It's people that are too stupid and unhappy to allow someone to escape poverty if they're dragged down into it and people at the top that are so fearful that they'll surround themselves with hierarchy to prevent anyone from having what they have. The middle class disappears and then you start assassinating the rich people. And then everyone kills each other until you have mob bosses that put a stop to it and then there's a middle class again (if you're lucky). I hear that the planes are falling out of the sky and I can't tell if that news report is real or not. Honestly can't. And the FAA is shutting down. Supposedly.
Fuck it. Here it is anyway.
So at the clinic on the Castro someone fed me 3 nature valley apple cinnamon buns that I think had chemo drugs in them so I feel incredibly fucked up and ill. I believe so yes. I had been screaming that my research had been stolen, and now google image links won't work and there are little king signs for free trials of photo cropping apps. All just a coincidence after not doing drugs at all I'm sure. After gettting sickened by a needle at Sutter Health Van Ness. So if you go to the hospital and they don't like you they will attempt to have you killed. So don't be poor. Don't ever become poor or the doctors in San Francisco will attempt to have you sickened to death. Fuck this guy he keeps coming into the ER every time someone sickens him by having a homeless person breath drugs on him at night and then having him followed. Or he's too annoying because he has had blood drawn SO MANY TIMES. Or he calls the doctors assholes. San Francisco General Hospital has a fun term for the psych ward which is called PES and the first time they told me we were going to PES to have my head checked I said "Wonderful! It's only been hurting because you're drug addled assfucks in the shelters are drugging me in my sleep for the last three years". And then I had to sit in a psych ward that's about as small and cramped as a submarine with locked little roooms for 20 minutes while they had me sit on a small chair and watched me until I could have them sign a release form letting me leave. But they won't say that they're putting you in the psych ward because *LEGALLY* if you're not a danger to yourself or others you can tell them to go fuck themselves. Course now I may be going blind because after that incident someone may have done drugs around me near the hospital that affects my eyesight. But hey! Don't go to the hospitals I guess. Or the homeless shelters. Or the cops. And there are no Universities (oh wait Stanford - thanks for having me followed and saying the word Stanford around me - that would be the place that has nowhere to live and no resources and is a $10 dollar 45 minute commute from the city - but of course I have no money even if I ask a laborer if I can carry something heavy for $10 an hour - sorry that's union only). Course at this point I would probably hurt myself working in construction, but they won't let anyone work in construction here because everyone would like to just see if they can hurt themselves intentionally to sue. To the point where *someone was surprised* when I fell on a wet sidewalk while delivering my notes from door to door telling everyone what an asshole they were because I didn't look like I was going to sue the guy or try and make a scene but walked it off. And the unions are busy doing absolutely nothing but waiting around. Nothing is getting built as far as I can tell. I hate this place SO FUCKING MUCH. Course I'm going to go to the hospital again and see if I can ask them what eating chemo drugs would do to me because of course I will. I believe it's a joke because someone at City College is sick and therefore a "King". It's awful. Fucking shit.
Oh - and if you agree with my original derivation of the above or not, the first rendition had 93 characters because I included the symbols for each character in the definition rather than rereferencing the variable symbol, but it should be mathematically set similar (that would be the diamond - holy shit he only likes money [it's a universe sign you twat] - with the two dots over it). So it's 89 characters and each of the three definitions are as close to what I believe are universal set signs for making, love, and war. Agree or don't. If you can read and understand this it's more or less the essence of the language and has many of the elements (other than recursion and generics) necessary. Not like anyone gives a shit. You could program an entire computer - from binary to typed language - starting with a single "ma" (diamond with a dot in the middle) character representing the hard drive space available. It covers both functional and class based programming. But now that the entirety of the internet is taken over by evil robots I don't know that this matters. And I still claim that it is the basis of all language despite what any "I'm dying and you said something that insults my belief system in the bible" crazy horsefaces or being stalked and given correlative reasoning - that is also included in sets it's just obnoxious and shitty. No, I don't want to fix how you're wrong. I don't want to have to deal with every particular pissant way that you can fuck with my life because you're upset that the bible and latin is wrong. No it's not a spoken language because it doesn't have as many collisions - although it could be made into a spoken language as it's a generative grammar. You're wrong. You're wrong and you torture people which makes you more wrong. You're wrong and you involve your children in hurting poor people which makes you the shittiest people I've ever met in 40 years of living on this planet. I helped ressussed two people this week, both of whom I believe were having their friends help them commit suicide and one of whom had friends that were actively upset that I helped. That's how fucking wrong you all are.